BLISS part 9 by Mike Loader and Lara Bartram Nabiki wandered downstairs warily. Life had been fairly normal of late, luring her into a false sense of complacency, which was why a little thing like Ranma coming back from the dead was able to rattle her. She flushed, irritated. The damn jock was never going to let her live that down. Her own feelings were curiously mixed. On the one hand, she was certain that his reappearance heralded a new wave of strangeness and chaos, and she wasn't at all sure that she wanted to be living in the middle of it. Not when the last time had ended with three or four people dead and Akane a physical and emotional wreck. She wasn't relishing the idea of the constant Ranma/Akane squabbling, either. It gave her a headache, and it made her want to pick the little brats up and shake them. Which, of course, she was physically incapable of doing, and this fact would make her headache even worse. On the other hand... she liked Ranma, in his own annoying sort of way. He wasn't nearly as dumb as he seemed, and despite his stupid arrogance and teasing, he did seem to really care about her sister. While Akane could do better than him for a husband, she wasn't likely to. And she could certainly do worse. And from the little she had seen of the two last night... things were a bit different. Ranma seemed to actually understand that her sister had feelings. Akane didn't take every poorly phrased word as an invitation to club him. They had seemed a lot more... honest. And mature. After two years, she would damn well hope so. Nabiki was so wrapped up in her thoughts that it took her at least three seconds to notice the baby Akane was cradling in her lap at the table. "Ah, Akane?" Her sister looked up, a baby bottle in one hand. "Yes, oneesan?" How to phrase this? "You've got a baby in your lap." Boy, she thought, that was sharp. "Uh-huh. Isn't she just adorable?" Nabiki examined the infant. It stared at her in a manner she assumed might be adorable. It looked more like vacant imbecility to her, but she didn't like children. "Akane? Stupid question, but, ah, whose baby is this?" "Hmm? Oh, it's Ranma's." Akane placidly continued feeding the baby. Nabiki's brain turned cartwheels. Didn't it take nine months before you had a kid? Had Ranma shown up nine months ago, and she had somehow not noticed? When had Akane been pregnant, anyway? "Er?" she asked intelligently. "It's Ranma's." "You mean you and he, ah..." "No, it's not mine." Okay, now she was confused. "Hold on. He had a kid with another woman, and you're calmly feeding the kid instead of beating his worthless skull in?" "He didn't have it with another woman." "How can he... oh. Hey. You don't mean..." Akane lifted the baby to her shoulder and began to pat it. "Yes." "Ranma? Mr. 'I-Must-Be-The-Ultimate-Man'?" Her sister continued to gently pat the infant. "He lost his memory for two years in a place with no hot water." "Ah." Nabiki winced. "When did he, ah, regain..." "Day before yesterday." "Did he take it well?" "He tried to kill himself." "Oh." She didn't ask who had stopped him. Poor guy. "So, uh, who's the father? I mean, the real... er, the other father." The baby burped, and Akane lowered it back to her lap. "You should probably ask Ranma that yourself, Nabiki. It's his business." "Okay." Struggling to regain her composure, she asked a harmless question. "So what's the kid's name?" Akane flushed. "Er, Nabiki." She blinked. "Excuse me, did you just say..." "He lost his memory." "Ranma's daughter with some guy has my name?" Her sister smirked. "It's a real honor, actually." "Honor. Yeah." This was a dream. Yes, she was dreaming. After all, the night before last she had dreamed of nude Fidel Castro on kangaroos herding purple sheep, and that had been much less surreal than this. "Look, this has got to be a mistake..." The door swung open, and Ranma trudged in. "Hi, Akane. She give you any trouble?" "She was a little angel, weren't you, Nabbiekins?" cooed Akane. Nabiki almost gagged. "Hey, Ranma... I heard you named your daughter..." He looked embarrassed. "Well, see, I lost my memory..." "Yeah, I heard. But you've got it back now, right?" He nodded. "Yeah. I have it back." "So, now that you remember who I am..." "We already named her," Ranma said flatly. "Besides, I'd have to ask Kuno before changing it, which I don't see a need to do." "Why would you need to ask..." A horrible thought dawned. "Oh... oh, you don't mean... I mean, he and... this kid is...?" "I lost my memory," Ranma said evenly. Nabiki read between the lines: Keep it up, and you won't like the result. "Right, you lost your memory." Gee. Ranma and Kuno. She wasn't sure whether to be horrified and aghast or bust a gut laughing. "So you named her Nabiki, eh?" she said weakly. Her head was starting to ache. "Yup. Wanna hold her?" "Ah, heheh, hey, I don't know..." With mild horror, she found that Ranma hadn't waited for an answer, and was thrusting the kid at her. Not knowing what else to do, she took it. Nabiki stared at the baby. The baby stared at Nabiki. "Stain the 1000 yen shirt, kid, and you're in trouble," she told it dazedly. The baby considered this. "Yen." Ranma stared at his daughter. "Hey... hey, Nabiki-chan just said her first word! I don't believe it!" Nabiki beamed. "Hey, I think I like this kid." "Yen." She nodded. "Yup. Definitely like her." Akane just stared. "Nabiki, you've corrupted my daughter, haven't you," Ranma said, tone mixing horror and amusement. She shrugged. "I call it an improvement. Are you _sure_ this is your kid, Ranma?" "Yen," little Nabiki said happily. *** "Here she is." Ranma handed a sleeping Nabiki to Kuno. "She fell asleep on the way over so she'll be out for a little while," he whispered. "Understood. I'll drop her off in a week then." Kuno stood and looked at Ranma a little unsure. "Would you like to come in for a drink or something?" he offered. "It's a bit warm out today." Ranma looked uncomfortable. "I gotta get back to..." His voice trailed off when he saw the pleading look in Kuno's eyes. He stopped and listened and heard only the buzz of cicadas. "Sure, I could use something cold." The relief that Kuno showed was obvious. He stepped aside and let Ranma inside the vast, empty house. The group walked silently back to the kitchen, the complete lack of sound becoming rather oppressive. "So, have ya heard from Kodachi?" Ranma asked, unable to stand it any longer. "Yes. They notified her when we were picked up and identified. She won't be coming home until next year. She said her classes were very important, and I can't really blame her. I don't think that she will return then though. The travel between the U.S. and Japan is quite trying," Kuno answered. "She sent a letter that was very pleasant and I wrote her back." He shrugged. "We have grown apart as siblings." Ranma nodded and leaned against the counter. "Too bad. I bet she'd love to meet her niece." He grinned. Kuno shook his head. "I don't think Nabiki's reaction would have been anything to compare to my sister's. What would you like?" "Whatever you got. I'm not picky," Ranma answered, smirking as he remembered Nabiki's reaction to her future niece. More specifically, the girl's name. Ranma watched Kuno open the refrigerator, still carrying the sleeping child, and saw the mostly empty icebox. "How about water?" Kuno offered as he looked in it himself. Ranma pasted a sickly smile on his face. "That's fine." He wasn't concerned with Kuno's ability to take care of Nabiki. When it came to her, Kuno's pride was non-existent. If he needed help, he would ask for it. But he wasn't sure how well Kuno was taking care of himself. "Hey man, why don't we go get some lunch?" he suggested. "I don't want to take up too much of your time." "It's no problem. Akane will understand." He paused as they started to walk from the kitchen. "Well, she won't, but hey, I'm used to it." The three were at the cafe that had been, and still was, the Furinkan hangout. They were sitting in a booth, Ranma on one side and Kuno on the other with Nabiki in his lap. She was enjoying playing with a still-wrapped package of crackers and remaining relatively oblivious to the concern her "mother" was showing. "If you make her wear dresses all the time, she's gonna grow up to hate them," Ranma said, looking at the girl and smiling. Kuno had dressed her in a cute little red sundress before they had left for the cafe, declaring the miniature sweatsuit was too unflattering. And she did look adorable, but... "Nonsense. When she grows of age, she will wear whatever she desires. What she wears now will have no bearing on it. Besides, I think she looks cute in it. She has a noble face." "I can see she got her looks from me," Ranma said, grinning. Kuno snorted at that. "Hardly. Compare our profiles." He turned his head to let Ranma see just how his face didn't look anything like the child's. Ranma reached over and mussed up Nabiki's hair. "She's got your hair, that's for sure." Shaking his head, Kuno looked at his daughter and smiled a little. "She's got the most beautiful eyes." "They're my eyes, that's why," Ranma said, smirking. Kuno looked up at Ranma, all mirth disappearing instantly. "You're right," he said quietly. "You do. I always loved looking in your eyes with the stars reflected in them." Ranma was stunned for a moment, then laughed a little. "Yeah, uh... well..." He scratched the back of his head and looked at the counter. "Do you think our food is ready yet?" Kuno sighed and leaned back in the booth. What kind of idiot stunt did he just pull? Ranma wasn't interested in either form, and the only thing about Ranma he liked was "Akane". No, that wasn't true, but if there was one thing he missed more than anything, it was the look in "Akane's" eyes when they had looked at each other. Ranma could practically hear Kuno's thoughts, and they made him very nervous. "Look, man, I don't think..." Ranma stopped speaking as the waitress approached with their food. She smiled at them as she set their food down. "Beef bowl and curried pork for you..." That was placed in front of Ranma. "Soba and the sushi snack for you." She smiled as she set Kuno's order in front of him. "Is there anything else I can get for you?" "No, I think that's it," Ranma responded, trying to get his mind as far away from what Kuno had said as possible. He looked from his food back to the waitress and noted the friendly smile she gave him and then the smile she gave Kuno. They were different. Very different. And a plan was born. "Thank you, we're fine," Kuno answered, fussing with Nabiki and not noticing the look the waitress was giving him. "That's a cute little girl you've got. What's her name?" the waitress asked, stalling a little. Kuno looked up, surprised. "Nabiki. Nabiki's her name." A slight blush started to rise to his cheeks with the way the waitress was looking at him. Ranma sat back and smiled. It didn't even look like he'd have to do any work either. "You've got to go back. Didn't you see the look she was givin' ya? Man, she's got it bad." "I really don't think..." Ranma punched him lightly in the shoulder. "This is just what you need. At least don't leave her hangin' like that. Go and talk to her." "But I..." Ranma lost the look of silly excitement on his face and his voice grew quiet. "Look, you owe this to yourself. Get out of the house, do stuff." Ranma swallowed. "Forget about Akane." Kuno's face twisted into a painful grimace. "It's not that easy." "I know. This'll help. Even if nothin' comes out of it, at least you'll have made a new friend. There can't be anything wrong with that." The indecision was obvious, but Ranma knew his friend wanted to get out more and just didn't really know how without him. "Fresh start, back at stage one. It's called meetin' new people," he said softly. "You think she did?" Kuno asked. A small smile made its way to Ranma's lips. "Definitely." Standing outside the door, Kuno fussily straightened Nabiki's clothes, who squirmed in his arms and mussed them up again. She was almost taunting him with the little noises she was making, as if she were saying, "You're stalling, coward." Taking a deep breath, Kuno opened the door and entered the cafe. He looked around furtively before sitting at a small table off to one side. He wasn't all that hungry, but it had been the only time he had been able to rouse his courage enough to come. Instead of looking at the other people in the establishment, he picked up the menu and began to stare at it. "And how is my cutest customer?" Her voice almost made him jump, he was so nervous. He lowered the menu slowly and looked at the waitress. She was smiling gently at Nabiki and not at him. Saying a quick thanks, he forced a smile onto his face to hide the doubt gnawing at his gut. "Does she eat solid food yet?" the waitress asked, not even paying much attention to Kuno. "No, not really." He didn't know what else to say. "I hear teething's pretty rough on babies. Parents too," she said looking at him and smiling. "Now what can I get for you?" Kuno looked at the waitress, swallowed and looked quickly at his menu again. "Uh..." His eyes moved over the menu, his mind working furiously. He had seen it this time, seen the look in her eyes. Frankly, it scared him. The only woman that had ever looked at him like that had been... Akane. "I... don't really know. Maybe you could... come back in a bit." It frightened him that someone could ever possibly take the place of Akane, that he could consider simply putting his feelings for her aside. He shouldn't have listened to Ranma. It had been a horrible idea to come back, to see the woman again. "I'm sorry. I just don't..." he started to say, but when he looked back over the top of his menu, she was already gone. Kuno was relieved, but disappointed he had handled it so badly. How could he ever explain his situation to her, to anyone? Even if he had wanted to, how could he? With a thump, he dropped his head to the table and closed his eyes. "Nabiki-chan," he moaned, "what do I do?" Nabiki whomped him on the head and grabbed two handfuls of hair. "How do I tell her? I... I think I want to, but how do I say it?" Kuno groaned while Nabiki pulled on his hair. "Coffee's a start. Or sandwiches." Kuno sat up abruptly upon hearing the voice and was immediately blushing. "I, uh..." "I get a break in ten minutes. If you wouldn't mind waiting here until then..." She looked hopefully at Kuno, who nodded mutely. "I'm Tojiko," she said, now smiling, and held out her hand. "Uk... Tatewaki." He took her hand in his for a polite shake. "It's nice to finally put a name to the face." With that said, Tojiko headed back to the kitchen. Kuno looked at Nabiki, who was still stubbornly hanging on to his hair. "What have I gotten myself into?" The ten minutes seemed to crawl by, minutes in which Kuno considered leaving more than once. But he couldn't make himself do such a low act. "Hi." And before he could consider anymore, she was sitting in front of him. "Hello," he answered slowly. "I don't make you uncomfortable, do I?" Toying with lying for a moment, Kuno replied, "Yes. I am rather... inexperienced with women." Tojiko smiled. "That's sweet, but you don't need to make things up. It's nothing to be ashamed of if you've played the field. Nowadays, you have to be sure." Kuno was quite surprised by the woman's... Tojiko's openness. Most certainly no woman had ever spoken to him quite like that. "Well, I..." He could feel his cheeks reddening and willed them to stop. "I haven't really. There has been only one woman before." Tojiko nodded slowly. "I'm sorry. I didn't see a ring and I just assumed..." She started to stand, silently cursing married men who didn't wear their rings. Kuno watched her, confused. "I don't... Ah! No, please sit. I'm not involved with anyone. Sit back down, please. I... We... It was a complicated situation and we are no longer together." Tojiko sat down slowly, not as open as before. "So then..." she began. "Um..." "Nabiki's your..." "Daughter. She's my daughter." He looked her in the eye for just a moment before he was forced to look away. Kuno nodded. "She's my daughter." "She's very cute." Tojiko held her hand out to Nabiki, who grabbed her finger and gave her a big grin. "She's got quite a grip too." Kuno nodded, but didn't say anything. His eyes were still directed on the table. "When I asked you your name, you started to say something else. Why?" Tojiko was not one for beating around the bush. Not in the least. The slight frown that passed across Kuno's face was not lost on Tojiko. "It has to do with Nabiki's mother. It's... not a pleasant memory." "I'm sorry." Now her curiosity was piqued. This was something Tojiko would make sure to find out later. "I know this isn't a very good place to talk, not like this, so..." She pulled out her pen and an order slip. "Here," she said as she began to write down her phone number. "If it's not too much trouble, if it's something you wouldn't mind doing, I'd still like to talk." Kuno took the offered number and stared at it. "I don't know when..." "Call me any time it's convenient for you. I won't mind." Tojiko stood and pushed her chair in. "And I don't mind Nabiki or whoever her mother is either." Kuno looked up at her, a look of confusion and uncertainty on his face, and nodded. "I do believe she was..." "Putting the moves on you. The next step woulda been for her ta throw herself at you. I'm kinda surprised she didn't from what I've heard." Ranma thumped Kuno congratulatorily on the back. "But I... I don't know." "You didn't like it?" "She was... _staring_ at me. In her eyes, she saw me as if I was just..." Ranma chuckling stopped him. "A piece of meat, right? Get used to it. Women these days take their manhunts very seriously. She obviously thinks you're a good catch, and you are." He leaned closer. "Was she good-looking?" he whispered conspiratorially. "Well, Yes, I suppose she was." Ranma grinned. "If you end up home alone with her, I'd watch it. You better use Nabiki-chan as a shield or you might be naked on the floor before you know it." Blushing, Kuno shook his head. "No, I really do not see that happening." "See, those are the ones you have to watch the most. You think you're safe and then BAM! Pants in the kitchen, shirt in hall and you're pinned to the floor next to the bed." Kuno stared at Ranma. "It seems as if you speak from experience." Ranma's grin widened. "Maybe. Don't knock it till you try it though. What'd she think of Nabiki-chan?" "She was alarmingly understanding. After... after Akane, your Akane, I didn't think..." "Whoa. I don't need to hear any more of that," Ranma declared, holding his hands up. "I know you two don't get along, but I hear enough of it from her. I don't need it from you too." Kuno nodded. "That was rude of me." He sat roughly down on the couch. "I have noticed, and today made it painfully obvious, that I have an extreme lack of social graces. It is a wonder Tojiko..." "Tojiko's her name?" Ranma was really getting into it. "Yes. I'm surprised she even considered giving me her phone number. I came across as a... a brain damaged monkey," Kuno said, shaking his head. "I'm sure it wasn't that bad. And if she didn't mind, then what's there to worry about? I think you gotta stop worrying so much about what happened... before." Ranma sat down next to Kuno and began counting off on his fingers. "She's good looking, she likes you, you like her... Right?" Hesitating for a moment, Kuno nodded. "Only superficially, but..." "She likes Nabiki-chan, she doesn't care about what went on before and she was practically in your lap. I don't see what the problem is here." Kuno frowned. "I don't know. It feels wrong, like I'm betraying..." "Akane? No, you're not betraying her. Akane... Akane doesn't mind. Not any longer." Ranma sat just a little closer and hesitantly put his arm across Kuno's shoulders. "Call her. Tell her..." "Tell her what? She will never believe me!" Ranma shook his head. "The truth when you're ready to tell it. Don't let what happened get in the way of anything." He smiled a little. "I can tell you like her at least a little. Before you even said anything I could tell. Don't let Akane get in the way. Don't let what you... we had in the past get in the way of somethin' for the future." "Your interpersonal relationships have much improved," Kuno said, laughing a little, sniffling once. Ranma shrugged, removing his arm from Kuno. "I dunno. I guess... the island forced me to grow up. Maybe it was against my will, but I saw some pretty ugly things about myself." "I wish I had been able to see such things before all of this had happened. What... what if I go back? I go back and I am not able to stop myself, and I know that everything is wrong, but..." With a stern look on his face, Ranma slapped Kuno. "Shut up, man. You ain't going back unless you let yourself." He looked in his friend's eyes. "If you do, I'll let you know. I won't... go back." Ranma swallowed and took in a big breath through his nose, buying himself time to reaffirm his identity. When he spoke again, it was with a quiet and uncertain voice. "I... won't." "I'm sorry. There is nothing in the world I am more afraid of than letting everything go to waste. All our efforts, all our experiences... I don't wish to lose those because I lose my sanity. I don't want to lose those memories." Ranma shook his head. "That's not gonna happen. And even if it does, there's just one thing..." He frowned a little and chewed on his lower lip. "She was real. Akane was real. I know that's something I won't forget. Not ever." "I loved her like nothing I ever have before." "C'mon, you know much I hate this," Ranma said. Kuno's show of emotion was making him very uncomfortable. Not only because it was directed at a particularly vulnerable spot in himself, but that he just didn't know how to handle it. "I'm sorry we never got along before," Kuno finally said quietly. "I have so many regrets." "Remember what I said? New start. For both of us. I know I'm gonna take advantage of it, and I think you need to too. You gotta think about yourself and Nabiki-chan. You know if you're not happy, she won't be either." Kuno smiled sadly. "This is true. I won't get a moment of sleep if she believes there's something amiss." "See? If you're ever not sure, just think about her because she needs you just as much as she needs me. Don't forget that and you'll do fine. And if you ever need anything, you just call. I won't turn you away. Besides, how else will I find out how things go with Tojiko?" Ranma broke into a grin. "A deal then. Thank you. I shall call her. And hope she doesn't think me too... odd." Kuno stood and nodded his head to Ranma. "Shall I pick up Nabiki-chan, or will you drop her off?" "I'll drop her off. Good luck with Tojiko." Ranma saw Kuno to the door. *** "Kuno's dropping by today, in a half hour or so." Akane frowned slightly. "Dropping off Nabiki?" Her husband shrugged. "Yeah. I thought I might invite him in for a drink, as well." She nodded resignedly. "I'll go do some shopping or something." "I'd rather you didn't." Akane glanced sharply at Ranma. The deceptively mild tone had quite a bit of steel under it. "There's no real point in me staying, Ranma. I'd rather not spend any time in his company, and I'm sure you can..." "Akane, what have you got against him? Honestly." She stared at him. "You have to ask?" "Yeah. Mostly because I can't see any good reason for it." Scowling, Akane glared at the counter. "Possibly the few years he spent hitting on me might have something to do with it." Ranma shrugged. "That was pretty annoying, yeah, but he's a completely different person now. Can't blame someone who's honestly reformed for what they did in the past, can you?" "He took advantage of you on that island..." "Oh, for crying out..." He shook his head disgustedly. "I know I've told you this before - he didn't initiate anything. It was mutual, neither of us had our memories, and both of us wanted to do it. You have to be in a position of power to take advantage of someone, and if anything I had the upper hand in that relationship. So no, Akane, that doesn't cut it either." "I don't like him," she said flatly. "Why?" She opened her mouth to answer. Nothing came out. "Look," Ranma said mildly. "I can understand why you thought he was using me. He was a arrogant hentai jerk, and it was a logical guess. But it's been almost a year now, and he's been nothing but polite and proper. Hasn't he?" He had been, she reluctantly admitted to herself. "He's been better than he was." "So what's your problem with him? Honestly?" She thought about it for a few seconds, examining her reasons and feelings. She wasn't certain she liked the answers. "Well?" She shrugged. "I guess I blame him for what happened." "But we just agreed it wasn't his fault." "Do I need a reason to dislike someone?" Ranma smiled thinly. "If you're going to snarl and try to lay a guilt trip on them, yes. Especially when they're a friend of mine and a guest of ours. Not to mention your stepdaughter's father." She glared at him. It wasn't much of a glare, and it faded pretty quickly. "What do you want me to do, be his best friend?" she finally said, looking away. "You don't have to like him. But you could be polite to him, at least not act like he's some sort of criminal or something." She considered this. It wasn't something she wanted to do, at all, and she wasn't sure why. After all, everything Ranma had just said was correct. So why didn't she want to stop her feud? Because, she suddenly realized with an unpleasant jolt of recognition, that would mean admitting that she had been wrong. That it hadn't been his fault after all, that she'd been heaping abuse on someone who really didn't deserve it. "Baka hentai," she muttered, amusement mixing with dismay and regret. This was sounding awfully familiar. Worse, almost, since Ranma often _had_ deserved what she dished out; if she had been too quick to blame, he had been insensitive and taunting to the point of cruelty. Her husband had grown beyond that... well, mostly. She had thought she had, too. Now she was beginning to wonder if instead she had only shifted targets. No, she decided. Not entirely. Blaming Kuno at first had been understandable, even inevitable. It was continuing to blame him after learning the facts that was the problem. She hadn't even done that with Ranma, usually. "I'm jealous," she finally said wonderingly. Ranma blinked. "Excuse me?" She was actually jealous of Kuno. He and Ranma had Nabiki, and she was outside that. He had lived with Ranma for two years, and she was only now approaching that. He had shared a part of Ranma's life for years, a part that she would never have and would never fully understand. A part that should have been hers. She sighed. "Okay. I'll be as pleasant to him as I can, and make him feel at home. Just understand that I'm never going to like him. At all." Ranma chuckled. "No-one's asking you to. Just don't kill him before he finishes his sake." "I'll wait until he's done," she said, smiling slightly. *** Tojiko leaned up slowly, letting him see her intentions, and touched her lips gently to his. Her hands moved down his sides and rested on his hips as they continued with the rather chaste contact. She sighed, partly with contentment, partly with disappointment, as they parted. His hands were still on her arms, where they had remained during the kiss, and he was gazing into her eyes. There was a moment, the barest second, when she thought she could see a longing in his eyes, a desire for more. Tojiko leaned forward and rested against his chest, putting her arms around him. With her ear against his shoulder, she could hear the slow, steady beat of his heart. "Tatewaki," she whispered, staring off into the darkness, "would you come inside with me? Just for a little while..." "Of course I will," he answered, feeling very good about the person in his arms. Arms around shoulders and waist, the two entered the apartment building and up the stairs to the third floor. Tojiko mounted the stairs ahead of Kuno, her hand in his, pulling him along. This was new, going up to her apartment after the goodnight kiss, and she was hoping, just hoping... Down the hall, tugging him to her door, Tojiko brought out her keys. Casting glances back at him, keeping her smile guarded, she unlocked her door and led him inside. Kuno stood inside and waited for Tojiko to close and lock her door. He kept his hands in his pockets, attempting to dry the sweat that was gathering on them. Normally he left her apartment after the kiss, and that would be the end of it. But this night, he wasn't so sure. The lock clicked and Tojiko turned her attention on the man locked in her apartment with her. "Tatewaki?" "Tojiko, I don't think..." "Hush. I know you don't... want to..." She turned away from him, hurt and disappointed not only in him, but herself as well. She shouldn't be taking responsibility on herself for his... problems, but it felt like rejection. "That is not it at all." Kuno put his hand gently on her shoulder. "It is not that I am unwilling, but that I... I..." "Is it Nabiki? Is it because of her? I said I didn't care, and I don't care about how..." "It's not that simple, though I wish it were." His hand trailed down her arm until it grasped hers. "I know what you must think of me. A single parent who can barely function on his own, let alone take care of a baby..." "Where is she?" Tojiko asked, the question an obvious diversion away from the direction things were heading. "She is with... her mother's family for the week. Why?" He still couldn't get her to turn around and face him. "So why is she with them for a week? A full week. Why is that?" Tojiko asked, this question taking her mind off things that were less pleasant. "Because she... Her mother..." Tojiko turned and met Kuno's confused gaze. "Just tell me. How is that so difficult?" "Tojiko, would you allow me to tell you a story?" Kuno asked, knowing that it was time. Things had gone too far and he didn't really want them to stop. "It shouldn't take long." "I suppose, Tatewaki. But I don't see..." "Sit with me." Kuno went into the compact living room and sat on the loveseat that was settled in front of a blank television. He waited for Tojiko to sit next to him before speaking. "This story has to do with a group of children who didn't know better. One of them was cursed terribly to always be surrounded by chaos, and it was his goal to remove this curse. "Unfortunately, one potential cure had serious, even deadly results. More than one of the children were killed, and the young man and one of his enemies ended up trapped together on a mysterious island. They stayed there for two years." Kuno stared off into the darkened room as he spoke, trying not to let emotion break his voice. "But what does..." "This boy was cursed to be surrounded by chaos, but he was also cursed to turn into a beautiful girl when splashed by cold water. Hot water returned him to his normal form, but on the island, there was no hot water. And both of them had lost their memories. They didn't know." Tojiko was taking everything amazingly well and she wasn't sure why. But there was something she was sure of: when she took Tatewaki's hand, he squeezed hers gently. "And this enemy of his, he fell in love with this girl who did not know that she was a boy, and she fell in love with him. And they had a child together before they were forced to flee the island and almost died adrift on the ocean. "Not remembering anything, they managed the best they could, and the girl called herself Akane, who was the cursed boy's love, and his enemy was called Ukyo, one of the cursed boy's friends that was killed. "The child when she was born was named after one of the boy's love's sisters. Her name is..." "Nabiki," Tojiko said for him. She looked at him, partially in disbelief, but even moreso in sympathy. "Ranma. Ranma is Nabiki's mother. Ranma is her mother and I'm afraid because I still love the woman on that island, but I love you and I don't want to lose you," Kuno blurted out in one breath. He looked at her, pleased that the dark hid the fear in his eyes. Tojiko put her hand on his cheek. "Tatewaki, I still don't care." She leaned up again and kissed him. "I'm not letting you get away so easy this time," she said after they parted. "What do you..." Tojiko wasn't pausing another moment before unbuttoning his shirt, leaning forcefully against him. "This is what I mean. But it's so much more fun when you play innocent," she commented before attacking his chest. It hadn't been what he had been expecting at all and wasn't prepared to fight off the rush of sensation she was sending coursing through him. He pulled her shirt off, barely breaking the contact between them. Her slacks were next to go, being unbuttoned and unzipped before they were pushed down around her ankles. Tojiko wasn't allowing her hands to be idle either and had managed to get his pants undone and off while lavishing his bare flesh with attention from her mouth. Kuno's hands ran up and down her sides before they dropped lower to her panties and slowly dragged them down. She froze for a moment, but the feel of his warm hands along skin that had previously always been protected by a layer of cotton was too nice for her to deny. Tojiko kicked out of her pants and underwear, leaving her clad in only her bra, though she had herself draped all over Kuno. Hands and mouth moving together, she pressed herself against him in a rhythm, moving like a stationary belly dancer. Her hand snuck low, tickling his side for a second, then lower still until she hooked the band of his briefs. Down they went, leaving them both mostly naked, bodies poised at the brink. Kuno's ministrations stopped, letting only his hand idly swirl on her shoulder. "I can't do this," he whispered, his arms around her, dangerously close to doing it anyway. Sighing, Tojiko removed herself from the loveseat and headed back to her bedroom, leaving her clothes on the floor. Kuno sat on the loveseat, covering his eyes with one arm. The one thing he had thought would scare her off hadn't made her bat an eyelash. Something he wanted to do with all his heart, but not his head, had pushed her away. He was beginning to think he just couldn't win. A time later, Kuno entered the bedroom to see Tojiko asleep, her back to the door, as if she knew he would check on her. He watched for a moment, then started to leave. The twisting in his stomach would not allow him to though. Stripping down to his underwear once again, he slipped into bed next to her. His worries were soothed when Tojiko rolled over and snuggled up to him. Content for the time, Kuno put his arm around her and went to sleep. *** "You keep spendin' the night like that and you're gonna get yourselves in trouble." Ranma sat and lifted Nabiki to her chest. Kuno shook his head. "You know it's not like that at all. She thinks there is something wrong with me. I can see it in her eyes." He was practically wringing his hands with worry. "There is something wrong with you." Ranma leaned forward a little. "Or have you not taken a look at the two of us lately?" "She has never spoken it aloud, but enough hints were made that she believes I need to see a... a..." "A shrink? Ow! Watch those teeth, Sweetie." Kuno looked like the picture of misery as he nodded. "Well, I think if I didn't have all the crap before this thing had happened, I might be seein' a shrink too. There's nothin' wrong with that." Ranma shrugged, trying not to seem too unsympathetic. "She's only doin' it because she cares. If she didn't want to stick with ya, she wouldn't even bother thinking it." "Still, I think that..." Ranma shook his head. "Think nothin'. I think it would probably be a good idea. It might help... What's the word? Reconcile how you are now and the way you used ta be." Looking down at Nabiki while she nursed, Ranma continued talking in a softer tone. "I really think you should, even if you don't think you need it. If only to make her feel better, it'll be worth it." Perking up suddenly, Ranma smiled at Kuno. "So she was all over you? How far did you go?" Kuno's face turned red and he looked down at his hands. "We... we didn't. I was unable to." Ranma tsked. "That's definitely somethin' the doctor can help you with. I hear that it's mostly psychological." "Not that! That was not why!" Kuno got control of himself, the vein bulging in his neck. "I just could not bring myself to do it in good conscience. That is something that should wait until marriage. And no matter how much I wanted to..." "Do you really think you can hold out that long?" Ranma asked. "I... I will try. But no, I'm not sure." *** "Tatewaki." "I would like to speak with you." "I don't get a break for another hour. And I'm busy now so..." "I will wait." Kuno took a seat at a small table in the corner and looked over the menu. Tojiko looked at him for a moment, trying to figure out just what he was up to. Often when she attempted that, it was a losing proposition. "What do you want, Tatewaki?" Tojiko asked, sitting down across from him. "I only have 20 minutes." "I wanted to apologize. I wasn't rejecting you. I just don't think... I don't think I can do that unless we're..." He looked down at the table, then back at her. "And I have decided to visit a doctor starting next week." He swallowed and made sure he was looking in her eyes. "It was suggested that I bring someone... close to me along." "So why don't you take Ranma?" was her somewhat bitter reply. "Ranma is already Nabiki's mother. My relationship with him will go no farther than friends." The words and what he was implying with them barely penetrated Tojiko's very confused brain. "You want me to go with you?" Kuno nodded. "I don't need a friend with me. Nor do I _want_ one with me. I would prefer someone closer, someone who can understand from a different viewpoint. I don't want someone who knows what I used to be. I wish I couldn't." "When and where?" *** Kuno swallowed and looked at the gate, completely intimidated. "Are we going in?" Tojiko asked. He nodded in response and lifted his hand to ring the bell. It was shaking and his palms were sweaty. But he had already explained the situation to Tojiko, and she had accepted it. Maybe not completely believed it, but accepting it was the beginning. Tojiko reached up and rang the bell with Kuno's hand still holding it. "Don't be so nervous," she whispered, leaning against him. "I'm sorry. It's just that..." "And don't be sorry." "You don't realize what the situation between Akane and I is like. It is most unpleasant." "We'll make it through alive. I'm sure of it." Tojiko kissed him on the cheek before the gate was opened. "Hurry before someone dies." "What is the..." "I said hurry. Who knows how much longer it'll last before they explode in there." Nabiki kept glancing back at the house worriedly. "I don't..." "Just get in there, Kuno-chan. I think it'll be your only chance." She shooed the two in and closed the gate. As Kuno and Tojiko walked to the front door, they stayed alert for whatever it was Nabiki seemed to be so concerned about. Inside, it was quiet, with Kasumi, Ranma and Akane already at the table, chatting pleasantly. "What are you talking about?" Kuno whispered as Nabiki closed the door behind them. "It looks perfectly fine." "Exactly. I'm just waiting for them to explode. Watch yourselves," she warned then smiled and went to the table. Tojiko cast a doubtful look at Kuno, but followed as he approached the table as well. "Good evening," he said. "Heya, have a seat. We're just gettin' ready to eat," Ranma offered, smiling. "Thought you weren't gonna make it there for a bit." "We wouldn't miss it," Tojiko said perkily. She waited for Kuno to sit to Ranma's right, across from Akane, before she sat next to him. "It smells delicious." "Thank you. It's one of my mother's recipes," Kasumi answered politely. And then they began to eat with almost false politeness. Everyone stayed quiet, even both Nabikis. There was something happening that didn't seem like it would be a good idea to interrupt. "Excuse me..." "Tojiko. Just call me Tojiko." "Yes, Tojiko." Akane gave her a thin smile. "I was just wondering how you met my husband and his..." Ranma looked at Akane for a heartbeat, then continued to eat. "Friend. Ranma's talked a lot about you. I think he considers himself a matchmaker." Akane smiled wider, but it was limited to only her mouth. "Oh well I was working at the cafe on my usual shift when these three come in, and little Nabiki was just adorable, and..." Tojiko shrugged, smiling, a little aglow with the memory. "Yes, she is a beautiful child. It's surprising actually." This time, the humor reached her eyes as she looked over at Ranma. "Hey, Nabiki's gonna be the cutest girl in school when she starts," he said with a mouthful of food. The elder Nabiki just shook her head and rolled her eyes. She was still waiting for something to happen. Tojiko smiled warmly and looked at Kuno. She was worried and a little disappointed to see how he was looking sadly at Ranma. That lasted for a moment, then he looked across the table at Akane, who was holding Nabiki in her lap. More than anything, she wanted to know how everything had gone, all the details. She needed to know why they all acted so... coldly to one another. She felt a twinge of regret in her, knowing full well that her relationship with Tatewaki was not as strong or steady as what Ranma and Akane had. Tojiko wasn't even sure it would last, since there were things she... wanted in the relationship that so far Tatewaki hadn't been able to give her. But she wanted to try, and Ranma and Akane just showed her how miserably she was failing to make a stronger bond. When she tried to get close, he pushed her away. The counseling had been a revelation for the both of them, but that didn't seem to help their relationship. That just didn't seem to be the necessary glue, but she didn't know what was. Akane was lifting Nabiki and handing her to Ranma; that was what got Tojiko's attention. But when Nabiki kicked over Ranma's cold beer and Akane's water, she had to stare. "Aw, da..." Ranma barked, catching himself from cursing. "Akane! Aw, Nabchan. Darn it..." The now female Ranma busied herself with cleaning up the mess. "Great, now the whole place is gonna smell like beer." "It's all true." Ranma looked up to find Tojiko staring. "It's all true. I don't believe it." "Yeah, it's true," answered Ranma, trying to clean herself up. "As much as I hate it, I manage to get along." She tried not to look uncomfortable as Tojiko continued to stare. "I'm sorry I didn't really believe you when you told me what happened," Tojiko said quietly as she walked next to Kuno back to his house. "There is no need. Whether you believed or not, you accepted it. That is enough for me." Their hands found each other in the dark. "It was selfish of me," she said quietly. "I accepted it because I... I just wanted you. I didn't really care. I didn't care about Nabiki or Ranma; I was pretty sure that if I got enough of a foothold, I could make myself more important than them." She looked at the sidewalk. "Though you never..." "No, you never. There's one thing I know about men, and that's what they think is important in life. A single father, lots of responsibility... I don't need to spell it out for you. "I still think you're a great person, but maybe I'm not as generous and forgiving as you thought I was. No, I know I'm not." "Compared to what I used to be, you are a saint," Kuno told her. "And I would have fallen into your trap if it hadn't been for the person I used to be. Now, after the island, after Akane, now that I have Nabiki-chan, I suppose I want it all. I have the house and the baby, and now all that is missing is the... the person to spend the rest of my life with." Tojiko's only response was a squeeze of his hand. *** Tojiko sat and looked fairly uncomfortable. Akane was a person she didn't know really, and yet she was about to ask her about some things that most people only discuss with their parents, their closest friends, and the second party. Akane returned with tea. "What did you want to talk about?" Her manner was cool and pleasant. "Well, I know you don't like Tatewaki, but I guess I just wanted some perspective on things." She sipped her tea nervously, meeting Akane's gaze as little as possible. "It's not that I don't like him. I just..." Tojiko shook her head. "It's obvious you don't, and that's fine by me. I'm not going to try to make you see what a great person he is. I just want to know... I'm curious about your wedding." "My wedding? What about it?" Akane was genuinely surprised. "Well," Tojiko began, looking at her tea, "I was just wondering what it felt like when it was done with. When you knew that you were going to spend your life with Ranma, how did you feel?" The first real emotion crossed Akane's face then and she smiled. "It was a dream come true. I finally knew that all that time before wasn't just some crush or even my imagination. It was the happiest day of my life, even more than when they called to tell me they'd found Ranma." Akane shook her head slowly, tears at the corners of her eyes. "It's something I have with him that we'll never lose. No matter how we get split apart, the only people that can really break us apart are ourselves. And I don't plan on letting that happen if I can help it." Akane sipped her tea, acting as if she hadn't just poured her heart out. "That's wonderful. I don't think I know two people who belong together more than you two." Akane smiled shyly. "Thank you. It was a struggle." Tojiko nodded. "So I've heard. Tatewaki told me all about the way things used to be." She wrinkled her nose slightly. "I don't think I could have put up with it." "It wasn't easy, and there were times I didn't think I'd ever make it to this day, but now that we're together, none of that seems to matter." Tojiko was nodding again. "Even the things with Tatewaki?" she asked evenly, watching for Akane's reaction. Akane winced, but maintained her composure. This was a discussion she didn't want to get into because she was pretty sure that Tojiko was ready to attack. The last thing Akane wanted was unnecessary hostility; there had been too much of that already. "What's done is done. It's in the past and is going to stay there. Is that why you came here? To pick a fight?" Akane shook her head slowly, eyes downcast. "I don't need to. I don't _want_ to. The only thing that ever achieved before was a lot of misery. I don't want to be your enemy, Tojiko, so I'm not going to defend myself over things that happened over two years ago." "I guess that's what I wanted to hear because I _would_ fight over it. I would fight for Tatewaki, and I definitely want what you and Ranma have." Tojiko set her cup of tea down. "I'm sorry for disturbing you. I'll just be going now." Akane stood as Tojiko did. "You're going to marry him?" "I would sure like to. There are other people in the world that aren't lucky enough to have a storybook life, marrying their high school sweetheart and living happily ever after. Some of us have to work our tails off to get along." Her voice softened since she could see the confusion in Akane's eyes. "I want what's best for Tatewaki, and I'm sorry to say this, but you're not helping. I'm happy for you and Ranma, but..." "I understand. I think you should leave now." "Don't worry. I'm on my way out." She stopped in the doorway. "And thank you, Akane. I appreciate it, even if it doesn't seem like it." "I talked to Akane today." Tojiko was cleaning carrots while Kuno cut onions. "Oh? And why did you do that?" "I was just asking her about some things. Nothing all that important." "I doubt that. What did you discuss?" She shrugged. "Girl talk. Things like that." Kuno looked at her, drawing his eyebrows together. "Things? For some reason, I believe it was more than that." Tojiko sighed. "So I asked her about her wedding. Just how things went, what it was like... You know. I was curious." "And?" Frowning and concentrating on the carrots, Tojiko took a moment before speaking. "I told her... to... I told her that she was hurting you, and that I'd fight to defend you." Kuno was perplexed. "Why would you ever do something like that?" "Because it's the truth. I would, no matter what. I've said it enough. I love you and I don't want to see you hurt. If that means I have to defend you, protect you, then I will." She turned and looked into his eyes. "Akane's done nothing to hurt me. I'm not concerned..." "But I am! She's got no right to treat you like she has! And Tatewaki Kuno, don't try to hide things from me. For whatever reason, I know it hurts you. And no matter how much you try to deny it, I'm going to watch over you for as long as you live." Tojiko was breathing heavily, looking at Kuno with fire in her eyes. He looked back, face devoid of emotion. They looked at each other, completely in silence except for the sound of Tojiko's breathing for more than a minute. "Tojiko..." "What?" she snapped. "Was that... was that a proposal?" "Maybe. You got a problem with that?" "On the contrary." "Good. Now kiss me, you idiot."