Leifker presents...

The first thing Ranma knew in the morning was pain.

This didn't come as much of a surprise to him; he'd heard what it was
like to drink, and he'd certainly had a lot.  His tongue felt like
Kasumi had used it to polish the floors and his head pounded with the
drums of some faceless marching band.  For a moment, he wondered if
his mother had made good on the seppuku promise, as white-hot knives
jabbed at his insides.  Skin prickled at his every touch, as though
the entire world was on fire.  He rubbed his arms together; why did
it itch so much?

Groaning, ignoring the warning sirens in his head, he forced himself
to his feet.  He didn't mean to drink so much... waitasec.  Yes he
did; he just didn't want to feel like this afterwards.  It was a
bachelor party that made him this way; he never knew that 'bachelor
party' meant 'make as much fun of the groom-to-be as possible'.  He
inwardly vowed that Hiroshi and Daisuke were going to pay for that
little stunt... he adjusted whatever it was he was wearing, and
staggered out of the bedroom.  Nature was calling him, and he was
compelled to listen.

He only made it halfway down the stairs.  The burning around him
intensified... as did the internal pain.  His groin hurt like Akane
had malleted it; gravity took him the rest of the way down as his
body coursed in waves of pain.  He felt tight around the chest... was
he having a heart attack?  

On reflex, Ranma placed his hands over his most treasured spot - then
gasped.  It was smaller; *he* was smaller.... somehow, he was
changing, in the middle of a bone-dry room.  The changes intensified,
and he fought back the screams... but couldn't hold back the tears.

He'd changed before, but then it had been much more innocent, much
less... offensive.  Here, he could *feel* breasts and hips swell; he
whimpered as his testicles rose into his abdomen, and his body
reshaped around new lines... new purposes.  It... it felt like the
first time, when he'd come from the water, or when he...she got into
the hot bath after facing Herb... He...She fought the screams for a
full two minutes, as bones ground against each other, and muscles
shrank to fit a different existence.  

After what seemed an eternity, the pain began to subside, leaving a
dull ache to replace it.  She knew the change was almost done; she
knew her second body, after all, and the way it felt.  She could feel
the breasts pushing against her arms, and her reshaped privates still
cupped by now-slender hands.  She couldn't think straight; the
hormones were kicking in.... she felt so tired.... so tired....
so....

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Leifker presents...

Angel

A Iris work of Ranma 1/2 fanfiction by Nicholas Leifker

All Ranma 1/2 characters created by Rumiko Takahashi.  All rights
reserved.  I must ask that you not do anything with any part of this
work without the author's permission.

Warnings: 
One pair of sunglasses
One can of Sprite (found in a scene in part 2)

"Back to the rhythm that we all came from..."

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I. Shadows

"Akane!  Wake up!"

Harsh whispers snapped Akane from her alcohol slumber.  Her thick
tongue rolled around in her mouth, tasting what was left of last
night.  She blinked, then looked up.

"Sa... Sayuri?  What... is it now?  If you're trying to get me to
drink another concoction of yours..."

The harsh whisper came again, sounding to her like a leaking balloon. 
"Dr. Tofu's on the phone!  He says there's something wrong with
Ranma!" 

At the mention of Ranma's name, Akane's eyes snapped wide open - a
move she regretted, as the light poured mercilessly into them. 
"Wha... what's wrong?"  She tried to get up, fighting the headache
and nausea that plagued her.  The phone was mercifully handed to her;
she placed it backwards on her shoulder, then corrected herself.

"Hello?"  Her voice cracked from last night's reverie.

"Akane."  Tofu's voice sounded tense - as though he were worried
about something. "Ranma... something's wrong with him.  I think you
should come down here right away."

"What's wrong?"  Akane fumbled with the buttons on her blouse,
turning an immodest party outfit into something moderately
respectable.  

The pause on the line seemed to last an eternity.  "Akane.... there's
something wrong with the curse."   

Akane nearly dropped the phone from shock.  "I... I'm on my way,
Doctor."  She handed the phone back to Sayuri, who replaced it on its
hook.  

"So what happened this time?" Sayuri whispered.  Apparently the party
had taken its toll on her as well.

Akane shook her head.  "Dunno... but nothing good."  She straightened
out her skirt, and moved toward the foyer.  

"Sayuri?"

"Hmmm?"

She began to slip on her shoes.  "Could you please come with me?  I
don't know if I can make it alone."

Sayuri frowned.  "That bad, huh?"

Akane shook her head.  "No... but I doubt I could find my own house
after last night."

The ensuing laughter was painful - for both of them.  Sayuri sat next
to Akane, and started putting on her shoes.  "Okay, Akane.  Let's
go."  

The journey to the clinic was a long one - the subways and city
streets glared with the bright light of the morning and blurred with
the colors of pedestrians, making Akane wish for sunglasses.  Sayuri
wasn't much better; she'd had to take a bathroom break at one point,
to offer her respects for last night's partying.  Akane never thought
she'd be so glad to see the clinic in all its spartan glory.  She
leaned her head against the doorframe once she walked into the
clinic, giving herself a moment of rest before going in.

To her surprise, Ranma was male when she entered the room; he was
sitting on the small bed, looking as though he was locked in a
prison.  She glowed when he saw the light in his eyes; he wasn't the
most expressive of men, but she could see his feelings broadcast in a
blue sparkle.

"Hey, Akane."

She thought about smiling back, then decided on a more familiar
tactic.  "And what are you doing here?"

Ranma grumbled.  "I... just had a little attack.  That's all."

"A little attack?"  The voice startled Akane; she hadn't heard Tofu
walk in.  "Ranma, you changed over the course of minutes in the
middle of a dry room!  I wouldn't call that 'a little attack'.  I'd
call it a problem."

Ranma moved off the bed; Akane responded by moving next to him. 
"Well, I'm fine now."

Akane looked at him closely.  She could see through his bravado;
Ranma was genuinely scared.  Forcing him to look her in the eye, she
gave him a glare... one with all the love she could muster.

"Really?"

He turned away, a clear sign he was lying.  "Yeah."

She took a deep breath.  Anger was her enemy, and she would not let
it overcome her.  Not now.  "Ranma, you will get in that bed this
instant and you will not get out until Dr. Tofu has determined what's
wrong with you.  Okay?"

Ranma looked downward, like a scolded child.  "O... Okay, Akane.  If
you want me to."

"Good."  She sat next to him on the bed, and moved her hand to slide
into his.  "Now what happened?  Really?"

She felt his grip tighten.  Whatever had happened had definitely
shook him up.  "Well... I woke up from the party... and felt...
strange.  I went down to the bathroom to do some stuff, when... I...
started to change.  

"Started to change?"

He nodded slowly.  "It.... God, it was painful.  When I change
normally, it's just a quick tingling, and that's it."  He shook his
head.  "This time... I could feel every bit."

Tofu sat down across from them.  "The shock to the system was so bad
that he collapsed.  Kasumi found him sprawled out on the floor this
morning, and assumed the worst."  

Akane blinked.  "And there was no water involved?"

"None."  Ranma shook his head.  "Something else triggered the change. 
And I have no clue as to what."  

Akane looked over to Tofu.  "Did the alcohol affect his curse
somehow?"

Tofu's eyebrows furrowed.  "Well... I don't think so.  Mr. Saotome
drinks fairly often, after all."

Akane started to play with the hem of her dress.  "What do we do now,
Doctor?"

Tofu frowned.  "We keep a close watch on him for a day or so, and see
if it happens again.  In the meantime, I'm going to go over to the
Nekohanten; Cologne has more experience with Jusenkyo than I do."

Something flashed within her at the mentioning of Cologne's name. 
Something nasty.  "Doctor... could she be behind what happened?"

Tofu shrugged.  "Maybe.  If she is, though... I think we'll find out
about it."  He pulled a coat over his shirt, and moved for the door. 
"Akane, I trust you'll keep an eye on him..."

She gave a sidelong glance toward her fiancee.  "Oh, I... think I
could do that."  

"Good."  He smiled.  "I'll try to have this solved before the
wedding; I promise."  He closed the door behind him, encouraging
Sayuri to come along with him.  She was grateful for that; at the
moment, she wanted nothing more than to be alone... with him.

***

Shampoo was worried.  

She wiped the tables of the Nekohanten quietly, afraid that a word
would crash her inner silence.  It was still late morning; the lunch
rush hadn't started yet, and only a couple of diehards were in the
restaurant.  Mousse was busy at the register taking an order; she'd
have to go back into the kitchen in a second.  Everything seemed
normal, but still... she couldn't get the feeling of emptiness from
her mind.

For her Hibachan was gone.  

Her great-grandmother had left three days ago.  She had said that she
was picking up herbs somewhere in Kansai, but that she would be back
the next day.  She waited for her to come; Hibachan never missed a
promise like that... but she had to shut the restaurant alone.  

Truth to tell, the place felt empty without her.  She missed those
sparkling eyes that gazed on her with parental love, her hard-as-iron
hands that could shatter stones and hold her close, her wrinkled
smile, her wisdom born of age... she had grown up knowing Cologne's
presence, and life felt hollow now without her.

A shadow passed over the door, and she looked up, half expecting to
see her face.  The shadow was larger than she'd wanted, though... 

"Welcome, Doctor.  What can Shampoo get to eat?"

She could see it; he was worried as well.  "Is... Cologne around?"

"No," she forced out.  "Hibachan... not here."

The doctor's eyes narrowed; he was angry at her absence?  "Where is
she?"

She stared at her feet for a moment.  "Shampoo not know.  Hibachan
leave three day ago, say she back next day."  She wrung the dishtowel
in her hands.  "She not back since."

Shampoo could feel the doctor's eyes examining her, piercing through
to her very essence, then felt relief at his relaxing.  

"Shampoo, would your great-grandmother know any methods of
manipulating a Jusenkyo curse besides the Cat's Tongue?"

She stopped.  There were a couple of methods... "Why ask?"

Tofu bit his lip.  "I think that someone used one of those techniques
on Ranma last night."

Shampoo's heart dropped.  "Ai... Ranma?  What happen?"

Tofu's gaze burned into her.  "He changed... slowly... without the
use of water.  He complained of a tingling feeling along his skin,
and stomach problems just before the change."

She gasped.  Memories came back to her, nightmares of her childhood;
a man crying, pleading for mercy... the half-animal screams...  She
steadied herself against one of the chairs, as she fought to keep
from falling.  "No... No..."

"What is it, Shampoo?"  Tofu moved closer to her, his hands shadowing
her shoulders.  

Shampoo looked at the hands, then turned to Mousse.  "Mousse, close
shop.  We have business."  She tried not to appear nervous as she
changed the restaurant sign, but knew she was failing.

Because, if she was right, Ranma was in for a LOT of trouble.

***

For a moment, Tendo Akane was at peace.

She lay on one of the cramped cots Tofu used, jockeying for a
comfortable position.  Each movement only brought her closer to him. 
She could feel the resistance of his muscles as she snuggled close,
smell his musky scent when she found herself pressed in, sense the
aura of contentment around him, see his gentle smile, feel his body
warmth... she felt his hand close around hers, clutching in a soft
embrace.  

"Sorry to worry you, Akane."  He squeezed the hand tightly,
reassuringly.

She smiled, and relaxed.  Ranma was here, she was here.  That was all
that she needed.  "It's okay, Ranma.  I... I know strange things tend
to happen with your life."

Ranma blushed.  "Yeah, well..."  The hands around Akane quivered for
a moment.

"Ranma, are you okay?"

He looked downward.  She could see he wanted to lie so badly, if only
to protect her... but he couldn't.  Not to her.  "No, I'm not."

She turned around.  Beads of sweat trickled down his forehead. 
"You... you're really not feeling well, are you?"

Ranma only shook his head.  She could see that look in his eyes - a
haunted look that came only when things were their darkest.  

"Can you handle it?  Or do you want me to get a glass of cold water?"

"I can handle it," he whispered.  She felt his arms tighten around
her, as though she were a lifeline.  

She bit her lip, trying to form the right words.  "Um... Ranma?  What
do you feel right now?"

Ranma blinked, his mind lost in thought.  His hand played with her
own, even as the muscle coordination decreased.  "I... it's like
there's an itch all over my body.  Whenever I changed, I would feel
this... tingling, then find myself changed.  I'm still feeling
that... but it's magnified, somehow.  I... didn't feel it when I woke
up, but once Tofu put me in the tub..."

Akane swallowed the saliva in her throat.  "Do you... think that
you'll change anytime soon?"

"Probably," Ranma whispered, then winced.  "Probably."

Akane could feel twin heartbeats, as they both sat in long, painful
silence.  She could feel his hands lose their steady control, see the
sweatbeads on his forehead multiply, feel the internal quivers in his
body...

"Akane?"  The voice was shaking.

"Yes?"

"Ge... Get some cold water."  

She got up from the cot, just in time to see him double over in pain. 
Warring loyalties raged for a moment, her desire to be with him
conflicting with the responsibility to help.  Summoning her will, she
walked away, her eyes never leaving his form, and ran to the sink.

What was happening to Ranma seemed out of some horror film.  His body
slowly contracted on itself, as though his entire being were
exhaling.  Muscles lost definition; hands narrowed; his face was
painfully reshaping itself.  She nearly threw up when she heard the
creak of bone, then recovered.  

The cold water.  If she splashed him, he'd change instantly, ending
his pain.  She filled up the kettle as fast as she could, and ran
over to him.  She heard noises in the background; she turned to see
who it was as she tipped the kettle over...

A flash of purple intercepted the teakettle, sending it splashing
away from Ranma's form.  A ball of wet Chinese clothing rolled to a
stop a few yards away.

"Sh... SHAMPOO?  What do you think you're -"

"Akane."

Tofu walked up behind her, and put a firm hand on her shoulder.  "She
knows what she's doing."  He turned to Ranma's writhing form.  "How
long has he been transforming?"  

Akane shook out of her adrenaline rush.  "A... About a minute, I
think."  She looked over at her fiancee; Ranma was about halfway
changed; strands of red hair mingled with the black, and his body was
shrunk to about the same size as her own.   She shuddered; she'd made
fun of Ranma's curse so much in the past, and now this... 

Tofu walked over, and picked up the bundle of clothing.  Something,
no doubt Shampoo's other form, wriggled inside.  "Akane... I know
this may sound difficult, but I think we need to trust Shampoo for
once."  

"Trust her?"  Akane yelled, then turned back to Ranma.  It was almost
done... woman's curves peeked out from his clothing, and his facial
features were too far refined to be masculine.  "Why?"

Tofu put Shampoo on the counter, and turned back to her.  "Because
she's the only one who recognizes what's going on.  And, if I'm
right, her great-grandmother was probably responsible for this."

Akane had known a lot of anger in her life.  It was her vent, her way
of dealing with a world too twisted for her otherwise; if something
got in her way, she smashed it.  A different emotion settled in her
heart at Tofu's words, a dark, seductive feeling she was unfamiliar
with.  Someone had hurt someone very close to her, all because of
some stupid Amazon law, and she vowed that the person responsible
would pay - dearly.

For the first time, Akane knew true hatred.  And she vowed, with
whatever lifeblood remained in her, that she would see Cologne dead.  

***

"Okay, Shampoo.  What's wrong with me?"

Ranma sat at a table in Tofu's clinic, gently rubbing her sore
muscles.  Her body had been put through a blender; every part of her
ached from the change, and she desperately wished for some time to
lie down.  

Unfortunately, if she was to find a way out, time was something she
didn't have a lot of.  She watched as Shampoo paused to gather her
thoughts, her hands clasped in front of her face.

"Once, when Shampoo child, evil man come to village.  He try to beat
women in combat.  When fail, he try to... violate one in night. 
Stupid man caught, and found guilty by Amazon Council."

She closed her eyes, not wanting to see what happened... but being
forced to nonetheless.  "Amazons declare that he no man, that he
animal - he pig.  Take man to Jusenkyo, and dunk in Heitonnichuan. 
Then... Amazons make man drink potion."

"What sort of potion?" Tofu asked.

Shampoo shook her head.  "It mixture of Heitonnichuan and certain
herbs - Shampoo not know which ones.  It give curse to inside of
body, not just outside."  She sighed, and tried to continue her tale. 
"Man... change to pig every few hours, just as you change to woman. 
Over time, it become harder for man to change... until, one day, he
no change back.  He pig... forever.  Amazons let him free, think it
worse punishment than death."  

Shampoo's eyes bore into Ranma's.  "Curse potion play with person. 
Hibachan tell man, if use water to stop painful change, he become pig
forever.  Man hold out - he strong man, if evil - but eventually he
no change back."

Ranma's eyes darkened.  If Cologne knew... then... "So the old ghoul
knows how to make the formula?"  

Shampoo nodded.  

That was all Ranma needed to hear.  She moved to get up, ready to
take that Amazon apart... when she felt an arm grab her shoulder.

"Wait a second, Shampoo."  Akane was nonplussed.  "How do we know
that you didn't make it?"

Shampoo shook her head.  "No know how."  She locked eyes with Akane
for a moment.  "Shampoo promise as Amazon: If Shampoo have anything
to do with Ranma changing forever into girl, Shampoo agree to drink
potion, to change forever into cat.  Okay?"

Akane looked at her critically for a moment, then nodded.  "Okay.  So
what do we do now?"

Ranma smiled.  "Isn't it obvious?  If the Amazons know a cure for
this, then we're going to China."

"And if Cologne's there?"

The smile vanished.  "Then I show her what I'm *really* capable of."  

***

Ranma silently packed her items in the bedroom, selecting for maximum
usage with minimum weight.  Extra clothing was barely a necessity;
the tent would be better, though she never really needed it.  Other
supplies were packed in rapid succession, as basics such as extra
food and matches made their way into the backpack.  The packing done,
she looked around the room, looking for something... anything she
might have missed.  

Sighing, she moved back, and leaned against the wall.  She didn't
want to admit it to anyone, especially Akane, but she was honestly
scared.  Sure, she'd been in worse situations before... but this one
just felt different.  There were no challenges, no condemnations,
nothing to indicate a way out.  All that she knew was that her curse
was overcoming her, and that the person responsible hadn't come
forward.

The more she thought about it, the more she suspected it wasn't
Cologne.  The old ghoul was crafty, to be sure, and had the know-how
to pull it off; however, she was also very manipulative, and
bargained like a devil.  If she had done it, Ranma would have known
that day what was happening to her, and how quickly she had to marry
Shampoo to get out of it.  No... there was definitely something else
going on.  

Biting her lip, Ranma pulled out a small box, and opened it.  Gold
glittered in the sunlight, as the simple bands reflected the
morning's glory.  They weren't flashy, weren't expensive... just two
simple wedding rings, with declarations of love on the inside.  

Saying a quiet promise to herself, Ranma closed the box, and stowed
it in her backpack.  Once she was cured, they'd exchange vows right
then and there.  It didn't matter if it was at Tokyo, Jusenkyo, or
the Amazon Village; she loved Akane, and Akane her.  And they would
seal it for all time... once she was cured.  She hefted the backpack,
and walked out the bedroom.  She was about to go downstairs when she
heard Akane call her.

"Um... Ranma?  Can we talk for a moment?"  Ranma blinked; her voice
sounded... timid.

"Sure."  She turned around, and walked into her room.

The instant she walked in, she found herself on the receiving end of
a bear hug.  Akane held onto her tightly, the shaking in her arms
letting Ranma know how much she didn't want to let go.  Ranma
reciprocated the hug as best she could; there were still some things
she wasn't used to in her body.  

"I'm so scared..." she whispered.  

Ranma swallowed.  She hated everything about this situation... but
she couldn't tell Akane that.  "Don't worry, Akane.  We'll get
through this.  I promise."

"But what if..."

Ranma gave a cocky grin - one she couldn't see, but was largely for
her own benefit.  "Akane, I am a guy.  Even if I don't get through
this, I'll always be a guy.  Never forget that."  

Akane shivered inside her grasp.  "I... I won't.  I just wish..."

"I know."  Ranma stroked her hair gently.  The smell of cherry
blossoms danced at the edge of her memory.  "We'll get married soon
enough.  I promise."

"Okay."  A sniffling sound made itself heard next to Ranma's ear. 
The two ended the embrace, and stood staring at each other.  

"Are the others ready?" Akane asked, picking up a backpack.

Ranma shook her head.  "I dunno.  I hope so... we've got a long road
ahead of us."  She took Akane's hand in her own, and led her
downstairs.

***

Shampoo leaned against the stern-end railing of the ship, watching as
the morning sun rose from a perfect horizon.  The seas were calm, for
once; no storm sought to topple them this day.  Occasionally a bird
would fly by, migrating from one place to another; beyond that, the
South China Sea was their only companion.  

Once again, she was saying goodbye to a place she had come to regard
as home.  She had needed the past two years in this barbarian land,
to break her spirit, to show her failure... and to bring her up, to
be forged anew.   If she survived the journey, she would be, without
a doubt, the premier warrior in the village - and a skilled leader as
well.  

If she survived the journey, that is.

If her great-grandmother had truly turned her back on them all, then
she was worse than dead.  Cologne's cursing of her had been a warning
to her, a message to prove herself strong... or face the punishment
Ranma now endured.  The council had warned her of the consequences of
any future mistakes.  If she had truly been deemed unworthy...

No.  That will not be, she told herself.  Her Hibachan would not be
so petty as to strike uselessly.  If there were a method to Ranma's
punishment, she would think differently.  Great-grandmother never
struck without good reason.  Here, there was no reason, no threats,
no bargains, no promises... just a woman where a man should be, and
far too many questions to answer.  

"Lovely sunrise, isn't it?"

She turned around.  Tofu was busy replacing his glasses with
sunglasses, to shield his eyes from the light.  

"Hai."  Shampoo scratched her nails along the railing.  "How Ranma?"

Tofu shook his head.  "Quiet."  He moved over to the railing.  "Too
quiet.  I think the change got to him, this time."

Shampoo sighed.  "Potion is worst punishment Amazons offer.  It get
to *anyone*."

Tofu bit his lip.  "Were there any other instances of the potion
being used?"

Shampoo shrugged.  "Once or twice, though person not last long.  They
use cold water so fast that it lock them quickly."  She put a hand on
Tofu's shoulder.  "What Ranma do if... no find cure?"

Tofu's response was a shake of the head.  "I don't know, Shampoo.  I
don't know."  He gave a soft, weak chuckle.  "How are things between
you and the tribe?"

She winced.  "Shampoo not know.  If Shampoo say 'run', you run,
okay?"

"That bad, huh?"  He looked so tired in the morning light; only she
knew how much time he'd spent in search of a cure.  "Well...
hopefully they'll show three women some mercy."  

She put a hand on Tofu's shoulder.  "Hopefully they show *two* women
mercy."

Tofu grinned, stretching dark lines on his face.  "Hopefully,
Shampoo... hopefully."  The two stood there together on the boat,
admiring the sun until it burned brightly in the sky.

***

The valley stretched out below Akane's field of vision, as bright
green grass and dark, rich soil framed gleaming pools of sapphire. 
Bamboo shoots stood sentinel over the pools, daring any adventurous
visitor to come closer.  Forests and small mountains ringed parts of
the valley, guardians trying to shield any who might come to
drink.... and be forever changed.  

Jusenkyo.  

"A cursed place, full of many tragic stories."  The guide's words
from her first visit came to her, soon followed by her own memories. 
Here, Kiima had forced one of her greatest fears on her - drowning -
and used it to steal her very self.  There were nights when she woke
up, screaming, as she remembered the comfortable light slipping away,
the burning in her lungs growing... the shock as she breathed and
found, not life-giving air, but water...

"Not exactly the most luxurious of vacation spots, is it?"

She looked over toward Ranma... her fiance.  For once, her expression
was unreadable; ruby lips were tensed into a thin line, and her blue
eyes mirrored the mysterious waters below them.  The redhead looked
around for a moment, as if expecting something to happen, then moved
away from the cliff.  

"Come on.  We've got work to do."  Ranma adjusted the fit of her
backpack, and moved down into the valley.  Akane and the others moved
to follow.

"Wait."  Ranma turned around to face them.  "Akane, Tofu, stay back. 
I don't want either of you getting curses over me."  

Akane fumed at the comment, but kept her cool, mainly because Ranma
was right for once.  She'd been stuck in the middle of Jusenkyo
before; the idea of being there once again, even with Ranma beside
her, gave her shivers.  Both she and Tofu began to hang back by a few
feet, making sure that Ranma and Shampoo were the only ones to go
near the pools.  

If anything, Jusenkyo looked even more impressive from the ground. 
Pools stretched as far as the eye could see, lines of blue in an
earthy landscape.  Each one had its own tragic story - a story that
could tell itself, if a person looked hard enough.  It wasn't
difficult to imagine a sixteen-year-old Saotome Ranma leaping onto
the bamboo poles in savage delight, ready to conquer whatever
challenge resided here.

She heard a shuffling from the hut, and noticed the guide and his
daughter coming to greet them.  They looked in better shape than they
had been; Plum had grown up quite a bit in the past year, while the
guide was... well... content seemed to be the word.  

"Ah... Welcome!"  He waved to the group in greeting, then frowned. 
"Why you still girl?"

Ranma sighed, a vent for a rising temper.  "Some... other people
disrupted the wedding.  In the ensuing mess, the water was drunk."

The guide simply nodded.  "I see... So you come here for cure?"

Ranma turned her eyes toward the pools; Akane swore that a tear
rolled down one eye.  "If I can, sir.  If I can."

Plum walked up to the person who'd saved her, and frowned.  "What
wrong, Ranma?"

Ranma took a deep breath.  "Something's wrong with my curse, Plum. 
I... I'm hoping a splash of Nannichuan will fix it."

The guide nodded, understanding.  "Come this way."  He looked over to
Shampoo.  "You wish for cure as well?"

Shampoo shook her head.  "No want cure.  Is Amazon punishment. 
Shampoo will stay Amazon, if can."

"As you wish.  Come.  We cure, if can."  Akane watched as Ranma
followed the guide through the springs, a strange meandering path as
they walked around various pools of horror.  Ranma nearly lost her
footing on one occasion, a move that paralyzed Akane in fear, before
the two stopped in front of one spring.

She watched the two of them talk for a minute; she was out of casual
earshot, and couldn't make out what was said.  She wondered if it was
the 'tragic story' that the guide made his living on knowing, or if
it involved more mundane concerns.  Tragic stories did exist, after
all... at the moment, she was engaged to one.  

She took in a deep breath when Ranma jumped feet-first into the
spring.  A prayer came to her lips, a plea for a cure... for
relief... for anything to ease her fiance's pain.  He'd suffered
enough; he shouldn't have to suffer more.  And, for that moment of
prayer, no sound was heard in the valley.

Then she heard the scream.

Ranma's scream was unlike anything she'd heard before.  It was
primal, animal, a wail of pure agony... the cry of someone out of
their rational mind.  Water splashed around the Nannichuan; anyone
within the splash radius would be changed easily.

Then he slipped under again, and stunned silence returned.  

She caught a blur of brown, and turned to her right.  Tofu was
leaping along the bamboo poles, his urgency showing in his rapid,
precise movements and his disregard for his own form.  There in
seconds, he dived quietly into the Nannichuan, like an Olympian.

A few seconds later, he broke the surface of the pool.  Ranma was
twitching in his arms... still female.  He touched a point on Ranma's
neck, and her struggles ceased.  It took another moment for him to
drag her out of the pool.  

Akane stood, helpless, as Tofu and the guide manipulated Ranma's
form. She could barely hear their exchange; at any rate, it was in
Mandarin, a language she didn't know.  After a moment, they hefted
Ranma's form, and ran to one of the other pools, near the edge.  

It didn't take much for Akane to guess which one.  

Tofu dropped the body halfway into the pool, then hesitated for a
moment.  She knew why; if Tofu dived in, he would find himself with a
whole new set of problems.  After a second's thought, he moved to
fall in.

"Wait!" she shouted.  She knew it was crazy; if truth be known, she
was terrified.  She moved next to Tofu, and took the body from him. 
She shuddered; she could feel the water tingling against her skin...

"Grab my hand."

Tofu blinked at her for a moment, then got the idea.  He took her
hand, and began to lower her in.  She took a deep breath as she
descended into the spring... into the darkness.  

Ranma's form still twitched in her sleep; whatever had been done to
her didn't like the idea of a Nannichuan cure.  She felt the
struggling cease as she eased herself in.  She tried to swallow her
fear, the sinking feeling inside... and relaxed.  Soon, her body was
immersed into the water, Tofu's grip the only think keeping her in
the world.  

As soon as it was done, she felt Tofu tug on her arm.  She climbed
out of the water, still holding Ranma tight, and fell onto the
ground.  

"Thank you, Akane."  Tofu's voice came from the darkness; she didn't
want to open her eyes.  Plum came over, and handed towels out to
them.  

"What happened?" she croaked.

Tofu looked downward.  "According to the guide, it rejected Ranma's
attempt at a cure.  It... It seemed to be working at first, then...
fought back."

Akane swallowed, and looked up at him.  "Fought back?  You mean..."

The guide took off his hat.  "Ranma given curse punishment, yes?"

She sighed.  She didn't like this one bit.  "Yes."

The guide shook his head.  "Jusenkyo alone no cure for that.  That
curse strong, is part of person inside and out." 

Akane bit her lip.  "Do you know of any cure for it?"

The guide only shook his head.  "Only two people use punishment: Musk
and Nyuchiezu.  Talk to them."  

Akane moved over next to Ranma's form.  She moved her hand out to her
fiance's, and grabbed it with all of her might.

Because... she was afraid that, one day, she would have to let go.

***  

Hatred was a strange thing, Ranma thought as she watched the clouds
roll in.  Sometimes it started from almost nothing, a little slight
against one person that would be quickly forgiven.  Time would roll
on, things happen... then that 'little slight' wouldn't seem so
little.  She'd known people devastated by her or her father's
mistakes, and seen them deal with the hatred in various ways.

Right now, she had so much hatred inside of herself, it frightened
her.  And, worse, she had no clue as to what to do with it.  She
hated Mr. Tendo, for using the Nannichuan like a bargaining chip, and
for treating her like some prize to be won.  She hated Ryouga and
Mousse, for trying to steal the cure from her, and for turning her
life into some battle.  She hated Happousai and his glomps, and hated
Cologne for her underhanded tricks.  She hated her father for taking
her here, for the Nekoken, for selling her to the highest bidder... 

And, most of all, she hated herself.  For not being strong enough to
do something about it.  For not being man enough to show her face to
Mother for so long.  For listening to all of these idiots who gave
her advice, no matter how sage or informed.  

She hated herself for being a goddamn woman, and not having the
strength to change back.  

Her eyes turned back to the inside.  Plum and Akane sat in a corner,
playing a card game together.  She never would have thought it, but
Akane was remarkably skilled with children; the impatience she showed
with the rest of the world faded in a child's eyes.  The tomboy would
make a great mother one day.

She only prayed she'd get the chance to father them.  This should
have been their honeymoon, not some desperate gamble for a cure. 
And, unless some success turned up elsewhere, she'd never get that
chance.

The rain started to come down onto the valley, first in quiet
droplets, then opening into a true storm.  Ranma always hated the
rain; after all, she could never feel truly complete there.  Now, for
the first time in too long, the rain was calling to her, beckoning
her outside.  

Without a word, Ranma exited the hut and stood outside.  The
raindrops flecked against her body, one by one, each drop slowly
drenching her.  She didn't care about getting wet; she just wanted to
feel something, *anything* to let her know she was alive, that she
could still sense what went on around her.  The wind chilled her, the
icy droplets tore at her skin... but she didn't care.  In the heart
of the storm, she was alive, in a way she hadn't been in a long time. 


The complex kata came to her, guided by the inky darkness in her
heart, urging for an outlet... pleading for a purge.  She started
slowly, not totally sure of the movements in her form, then melted
into it, as she found a natural rhythm to go with.  In moments, she
was attacking the wind with savage ferocity, each cut daring it,
almost pleading with it to take away whatever she had left - if it
had the courage.  Her bones were cold enough to shiver, the wind
threatened to knock her off-balance at critical junctures, but she
would not give in, never give up... never, ever.  She had lost too
much already.  

All too soon, the kata was over.  She bowed to the rain, thanking it
for its defiance, then moved into position for another round, this
one even more difficult than the last.  Only one of them would be
standing at the end, and she'd make damn sure that it would be her.

*** 

Kasumi folded the last of the clothing, and set it down on the pile
next to her.  She picked up the clothing, walked to her father's
bedroom, and placed it in a drawer.  She slid the drawer closed
slowly, and looked at the clock.

Nine-thirty.  She was done with all of the chores, and it wasn't even
time to start lunch yet.  

To put it simply, the silence around the place was oppressive.  Ranma
and Akane were away on their trip.  Nabiki was immersed in college
entrance exams and was virtually unapproachable, day or night.  With
them effectively gone, the chaos had vanished, and she could finish
her cleaning in record time.

Truth to tell, she preferred the chaos.  It let her know that she was
alive, that she wasn't some dried-up old maid stuck caring for her
father and sisters.  With Ranma's 'friends' coming over regularly,
she could *feel*, and know that her life was of some importance. 
Insanity had become her link to sanity; conversely, mundane existence
threatened her to madness.  When there was nothing going on, it took
much of her self-control to keep from snapping at her father and Mr.
Saotome.

Not that they didn't deserve it, of course...

She paused, and remembered a regular source of chaos around the Tendo
home.  It was a place she'd been told not to clean up; after all, the
person in there knew better how to take care of the room than she
did.  She usually left him alone, just like he wanted. 
Unfortunately, he hadn't been around lately, and didn't feel like
bothering anyone.

Right now, she was too bored to care.  Even if it meant getting felt
up, at least it'd be more interesting than her father's inaction. 
She knocked on the attic door.

"Master?  Are you in there?"

Silence.  For a moment, she considered just going back and finding a
good book to read, but thought better.  Besides, chances are, the
place needed cleaning up.  She opened the door a crack to make sure
he wasn't up and about, then pushed it open.  

Something was very wrong.  The panties he so prized were strewn about
the room, the byproduct of some whirlwind  - or a fight.  Books and
tomes - his second-most-valued possessions - were scattered about in
a haphazard way.  Some ancient ones were crumpled to dust from the
exertions.

Instinctively, she walked over to the walls.  She knew what to look
for: a place where the dirt was less thick than usual.  It took her a
moment, but she found it - a smudge mark where someone had placed
their hands.  

The dust was thin, almost nonexistent... but it was there.  Whatever
had happened hadn't been that long ago - a week or two, at most.

Taking one look at the mess around her, Kasumi nearly fell down the
attic steps and ran to get her father.  This was something that would
not be good to clean up immediately.

*** 

"Ranma?  It time."

Ranma looked up at Shampoo, and tried to ignore the knotting in her
stomach.  This was her best chance at a cure; at the same time, it
could cost Shampoo's life.  Going into the Amazon meeting room was a
roll of the dice; she could end up saved, or could damn them all. 
She rose from her seat, and entered.

The decor in the meeting room was not what Ranma would have
envisioned.  It was essentially someone's living area, with chairs
and tables thrown around for simple utility's sake.   Even the
furniture was ordinary; there were no valuable antiques to speak of
in the home, no useless knickknacks set here and there for its own
sake.  It was a far cry from what she'd expected; somehow, she'd
pictured the Elders of the village to meet in a more venerable place. 


The Elders themselves, on the other hand...

Even being in the room with them was disconcerting.  Hawklike eyes
stared back at her from the tables and chairs, each one seeming to
examine every fiber of her being.  This group of a dozen or so
carried within themselves supreme confidence; she had no doubts that
they'd be able to pull off a Mouko Takabisha easily.  Some were
hearty warriors, veterans of the battlefield, while others were
withered, though by no means decrepit.  To a woman, these people were
used to rulership, and carried themselves with the quiet defiance of
the world that comes with it.

Unconsciously, Ranma swallowed.  She really didn't want to get these
people angry.  

One of the group, an ancient member casually sipping on her tea,
spoke in Mandarin.  Ranma didn't know what was said, but Shampoo
stood up and made some sort of quick reply.

"Very well."  Ranma blinked; the old crone had spoken Japanese.  "We
will converse in this... tongue, in deference to our guests."  She
took another sip of her tea.  "Now.  What is it that you wish to
discuss?"

Shampoo cleared her throat.  "First, would like know if Elders
ordered punishment on Ranma."

A soft murmuring came from the crowd in reply.  "We have no idea what
you are talking about, Shan Pu.  We ordered no such punitive
measures.  May I ask what was done to the outsider?"

Shampoo hesitated, then spoke quickly in Mandarin.  The reaction was
instantaneous; the Elders' reactions bordered on somewhere between
outrage and disbelief.  After a moment of this, the old woman (the
leader of the group, apparently) spoke up.

"Silence!"  The old woman glared at the group, cowering most of them
into submission.  "Shan Pu, this is a... very delicate matter.  To
hear that our most serious form of punishment was used without our
permission gives us cause for concern.  This, along with Khu Lon's
disappearance, leaves us in a difficult situation."  She gestured
over to Ranma.  "How long has it been since the second curse took
hold?"

Ranma took a deep breath.  "Two weeks.  During that time, I have only
changed twice."

The Elder nodded at this news.  "And you seek a possible cure from
us?"

She swallowed.  "Yes, Ma'am.  I do."

The old woman closed her eyes.  "Shan Pu, leave us.  We must speak to
Ranma alone."

Ranma felt like going with Shampoo as she left; the idea of being
alone in front of the Elders scared her. 

"Ranma."

She turned to the Chief Elder.

"Ranma, there are a couple of things that you should know about the
Jusenkyo punishment."

Ranma nodded.  She could feel it inside, see it in their faces...
"There's no cure, right?"

The old woman sighed.  "There is no cure that we know of.  Most of
our notes concerning the procedure were stolen from us decades ago. 
A young man tore through our village then, vandalized and tormented
our fellow warriors, and stole various objects before leaving.  This
man, I take it, needs no introduction to one of the Musabetsu
Kaketou."  

Ranma looked down at her hands.  She flexed them, wishing they were
filled with someone's neck.  "Happousai."  

She flinched at the glares from the women.  "Correct, Ranma.  A few
of the elder warriors of the time knew the formula by heart, and were
able to transcribe it into our notes; however, the original scrolls
are gone from us.  If there were any cure to it, it would have been
on those."  The old woman got up from her chair, and moved to face
her.

"Ranma, if there is any cure to be found, it is with the Musk.  We
stole the formula from them centuries ago; if anyone knows a cure, it
would be them.  However, I do not hold much hope for you.  The
formula was made without a cure in mind; it was intended to give a
fate worse than death."  She took Ranma aside.  "I gather that you
view your predicament as precisely that?"

Ranma blushed; she didn't want to answer.  "Well..."

"It's all right, Ranma.  I imagine that, were I changed into a man, I
would view it in much the same way.  I can only hope that, if you do
not find your cure, you will at least come to find womanhood
bearable.  It isn't as bad as you think, after all."  

Ranma swallowed.  "I... I dunno... I mean, Akane -"

"You love her, don't you?  We have guessed as much from Khu Lon's
correspondence."  

"Yes," Ranma whispered.  "Yes, I do."

The old woman was sad for a moment.  "I have no easy answers for
that.  Loving someone in a way foreign to instinct is difficult at
best.  She may continue to love you as a woman.  Then again, she may
grow away from you, and choose to leave.  That is the way of love -
we concern ourselves too much with the physical, and not enough on
the spiritual."  She began to lead Ranma toward the door.  "At any
rate, Saotome Ranma, if you ever find the world of men to be
unbearable, remember that you are always welcome here - as a fellow
warrior among us."

Ranma blinked.  "You're offering me a place in the village?"

"If you want it."  She smiled quietly.  "We understand that you will
want to search more before even thinking about it.   However, if you
find that fate has chosen this life for you, remember us - and that
we will welcome you with open arms."  

The redhead took a deep breath.  "What about Shampoo?"

The old woman smiled, and opened the door.  "Things have changed,
Ranma.  Her past mistakes are in the past."

Ranma looked at the group of them.  Most had taken to talking amongst
themselves; the rest sat there quietly, gazing on her with those
piercing eyes.  Truth to tell, they were impressive - a person would
be hard pressed to find a better assembly of warriors anywhere - but
the place was not for her.  They were women, who gloried in their
gender and who took pride in a matriarchal heritage.  She was a man,
always was, always would be - regardless of what body she wore.

If it came down to it, she'd die before embracing her curse.

"I... I'll think about it - if I don't find a cure.  But don't bet on
it."

The old woman smiled, seeming to laugh in Ranma's lie.  "We know,
Ranma.  We know."  

***

Akane had never felt so alone.

She sat in the guestroom at Shampoo's house, diary in hand, her pen
wet with potential... but with nothing coming.  She didn't even know
how to describe it.  In the past twenty-four hours, she'd watched as
her fiance nearly drowned in Nannichuan's waters, then stood silently
outside the Elders' meeting as Ranma was told the news; that they
didn't know the cure, and that any cure was unlikely.

Ranma was cursed to become a woman... and she didn't know how to take
it.  

How often had she joked about the curse?  How many times did she
splash him to get revenge on something?  She felt like kicking
herself for every time.  It had been so innocent then... so
temporary.  All it took was a splash of hot water, and *he* was back. 


It would never be innocent again, she knew.  Even if Ranma did find a
cure, she'd never view the curse in the same way.  The curse should
never have been treated as a game - and it would never be again, if
she had another chance.  She wouldn't splash him, make fun of him...
he never wanted the curse, and didn't deserve the abuse from her for
it.

She closed the book, and set it aside.  Too many sins were in there.

"Akane?"

She turned to the door, wide-eyed.  Ranma - RANMA - stood there, his
mouth twisted in that cocky grin she adored.  

"Ra... Ranma?"  She got up, almost afraid to touch him.  She thought
it was a dream, it had to be a dream oh God, please let it not be a
dream...

"Akane, I don't have long.  I... can feel it ready to change me right
now."

Akane swallowed, and moved to touch him.  She felt his hard chest
between her hands, and quickly snuggled in.  "I... why?"

"The Elders said that I probably won't be able to change for much
longer.  Also... I have to leave you in the morning."

Akane glared at him.  She was *not* leaving his side, not now!  "I
don't care how dangerous it is, Ranma.  I'm going with you."

Ranma shook his head.  She could see the beads of sweat on his
forehead.  "Akane, you can't go where I'm going.  The Musk are not
kind to women.  They may be kind to me, due to my past.  But... I
can't protect you there, Akane."

"O... Okay, Ranma."  She wanted to plead with him, to tell him he was
wrong, that she *could* go with him... but saw it disappear in his
blue eyes.  "Ranma... just hold me.  For now, just hold me."

Ranma nodded uncertainly.  His hands moved to her cheek, brushing
away tears she didn't know were there.  She felt him cup her chin,
and bring her lips close.  The kiss tasted slightly of fish; it was
warm, inviting... she never thought it would taste so good, or so
precious.  In a moment, they were melded together, two bodies moving
in synchronicity.  It seemed the most natural thing to Akane in the
world, this moment of sharing... this peace.  

The first tremor came; she could feel Ranma fighting for control,
holding on to what little remained of his physical manhood.  She
tasted salt; she wasn't sure if the tears were hers or his.  The arms
around hers shook, and began to change shape even as they held her. 
She could feel the physical changes in Ranma, as the chest she leaned
on began to soften.  Ranma still held on, though she could feel him
fading.   She could feel the teeth inside his mouth changing,
shifting positions and shapes...

Akane broke off the kiss when she noticed Ranma not responding.  She
touched the lips one last time with her fingertips, wishing she could
feel them one more time... then lay Ranma's body down on the floor. 
She waited until the changes were complete, then moved into a corner
of the room to cry... to mourn.  

***

The morning was a somber one; the sky was a solid gray, and rain
drizzled down onto the group.  Occasionally a bird could be heard
tending its young in the distance; beyond that, the woods around the
village were eerily silent.  The five that met outside that early
morning were also silent; if a word was spoken, then it would release
emotions nobody was ready for.  

Akane held onto Ranma's hand; it felt strange with her hand
encompassing someone else's, but didn't mind.  She knew it would
probably be the last time she would see Ranma for awhile, and she
wanted to enjoy what time she had left.  She rubbed a finger along
Ranma's thumb, and tried to smile.

"Well... I guess this is it."  She grimaced; the words were so...
inadequate.  

Ranma smiled gently, appreciating them all the same.  "For awhile,
anyway."  She cupped Akane's chin in her hands.  "I... I love you,
Akane.  I will be back - I promise."  She then kissed Akane gently on
the lips.

Akane swallowed; it hurt to even speak.  "Ranma... I'll be waiting." 
She took a step backwards.  "Be careful when you're searching, okay?"

Ranma nodded in reply.  "I will, Akane.  I'll see you soon."  She
touched Akane's hand once before turning to Tofu.  "You got the
instructions on the water, right?"

"Of course."  The doctor scratched his head.  "Though why you want
those rules followed is beyond me."

"It isn't that hard to figure out, once you find out why."  Ranma
hefted her backpack.  "Shampoo, I'll probably stop in for a visit
once I'm done."  

"Okay," Shampoo whispered.  She walked up, and kissed Ranma on the
cheek.  "Take care."  

He turned to Shampoo's father, their host throughout their visit. 
"Sir, your hospitality was excellent.  Thank you."

"My pleasure."  He bowed in humility, as men were wont to toward
women in the village.

Ranma sighed, and set his eyes toward the open road.  "See you later,
everyone."  Trying not to make eye contact with anyone, Ranma walked
off.  Akane knew why; Ranma hated to show anyone that she was crying. 
She watched, heart breaking, as Ranma walked slowly down the road,
her backpack seeming to swamp her, until finally disappearing over a
small hill.

Akane stared at the place where she had vanished for a long time. 
She brought her jacket in closer, and hugged herself for security. 
Warm hands grasped her shoulders from behind, startling her.  

"Don't worry, Akane," Tofu whispered.  "He'll come back."  He brought
her in close, for a friendly hug.  "He'll come back."

As Akane leaned into Tofu's embrace, she found something she'd been
aching for since the previous night.  She slowly buried her face into
Tofu's chest, and let out a low, almost musical sob.  

***

Hibiki Ryouga coughed nervously, and adjusted the collar of his
shirt.  He still wasn't sure how he was going to do this; sometimes
it was difficult for him to say what he wanted to... what he needed
to.  

Still, this was inevitable.  Ever since she'd bared her feelings to
him, ever since she'd known what sort of heart beat inside... he knew
this day would come.  The benefits far outweighed the risks, he
knew... but that didn't make it any easier.  He had to lay his very
essence out to the woman he loved... and hope she wouldn't reject him
outright.

He spotted her in the courtyard, and his heart skipped a beat.  She
was a vision to a wanderer like him, an oasis in a desert far too bug
for his liking.  She sat on a rock overlooking the pond, occasionally
throwing rocks in, and watching the ripples come forth.  She seemed
so lost, so forlorn.  She'd been that way for the past week, ever
since she'd returned from her trip, as he'd watched her from his
pig's eye view.  He walked up to her, human once more, and bowed
deeply.

"Akane, can I talk to you for a moment?"

She blinked at him for a moment, then smiled.  "Ryouga!  I've been
wanting to talk to you!  How are things going between you and Akari?"

Ryouga looked downward, obviously avoiding her gaze.  "Not... not
well.  We had a fight the last time I was there, and that was months
ago."

Her eyes saddened for a moment.  "I'm sorry to hear that.  You two
seemed like a nice couple."  

Ryouga shuffled his feet.  "Yeah, well... she didn't want a husband. 
She wanted a pet."

Akane chuckled lightly.  "Surely it wasn't that bad, Ryouga.  You're
probably just exaggerating a bit."

He shook his head, remembering the moments of their last fight.  "No,
Akane... it's over."  He walked over, and sat next to her.  "Akane,
there's something I need to talk to you about."  

She blinked.  "What about?"

Ryouga inched closer to her.  "Akane... before I start, I just want
to say I'm sorry.  What I did was wrong, and not in the actions of an
honorable warrior.  I hurt you, I hurt Ranma... I hurt everyone
around me."

She gasped.  "Ryouga..."

Unheeding, Ryouga continued.  "And the worst part of it was that I
couldn't stop!  I felt so comfortable here, inside your home... it
all happened so fast that I had dishonored myself before I could do
anything about it.  And, by then, I was too afraid to stop.  I was
afraid that I would disappoint you, Akane."  He threw a rock into the
pond.  "I understand if you decide not to help me, Akane.  After what
I did, I am no man, and don't deserve to be."

Akane ran a hand along her dress, smoothing out the wrinkles.  "What
is it, Ryouga?"

Ryouga moved off of the rock, placing an envelope there as he left. 
"When I chased Ranma after he... after I didn't make our duel, I
followed him all the way to China."

She blinked for a moment, then remembered what Tofu had said about
the water.  "Jusenkyo?"

He nodded.  "I came at precisely the wrong day.  Ranma was in a
berserker fury thanks to being cursed, and he... unwittingly knocked
me into a spring."

Her dark eyes stared at him fearfully.  "What do you change into,
Ryouga?"

He took a deep breath.  "Twelve hundred years ago, a small black
piglet wandered into Jusenkyo, and drowned in one of the springs
there."

"What?"  The question was flat, without pity - and it nearly caused
Ryouga to falter.  

He sighed.  "I... I am P-chan, Akane."  With that, Ryouga walked into
the spring - and vanished inside his clothes.  He struggled to find
his way through the wet fabric, even though part of him wanted to
stay.  He could hear her screams from underwater; to say she was
angry was an understatement.  

A sharp pain jabbed at the back of his head, and he fought for
consciousness.  His head rang with cathedral's bells; he guessed
she'd thrown a rock at him.  Perhaps it would be best if he died
here...

He felt large hands picking him up; was he being saved, or being
taken to a better place?  This didn't feel like dying... he struggled
to keep conscious, to figure out what was happening to him.

The hand laid him down on the grass; it felt so soft, so cool... his
vision was returning, along with what hearing he had.  He turned
toward a large shape swiftly retreating from him.

"...I'm sorry, Ryouga... so sorry..."

It was time for him to leave, he decided.  Once he got his bearings,
he'd find some hot water, pick up his things, and go on a long
training trip.  It was no more than he deserved; he was no longer a
man, and didn't deserve the cure. 

Sighing, he lay down on the ground, and closed his eyes.  All he
needed was a bit of rest, and he would be on his way.

***

Herb, Lord of the Musk, was not a patient man.  Throughout his life,
he had been tasked in ways that would break a lesser man, all to
learn the rules of rulership.  Every day had been spent honing his
skills, preparing for the day when he would be forced to take up the
mantle of leadership.  Even then, the honor was nearly denied him,
after a freak accident at Jusenkyo left him stuck in female form. 
He'd nearly been forced to abdicate then; only through secrecy and
determination was he able to win his manhood (and the throne) back.  

Now, he was forced to listen to someone in a similar position...
someone who, like him, had no concept of patience.  He looked at the
request for herbs, frowned for a moment due to the recipe's potency,
then looked up at the person requesting them.  

"Ranma, may I see the scroll you got this from?"

The scroll was handed to him, which he quickly unrolled.  He glanced
through it, found the description of the potion, then sighed.

"Ranma, are you aware of what this formula is capable of?"

He was not surprised by Ranma's reaction - indeed, he'd seen it the
last time Ranma tried a potion.  He knew the desperate emotions of
her situation.  Ranma would try anything now - as long as it stood a
chance of curing her.  "Yes, I am.  Right now it's the only shot I
have left.  Time's running out; you know that as well as I do."

Herb sighed, and rubbed the bridge of his nose.  Ranma was right; the
longer the punishment stayed unchecked, the more likely it was to
stay.  But to use *that* formula for a cure... "Ranma, this is
dangerous.  Some might even say suicidal.  This potion is as likely
to kill you as cure you."

Ranma nodded in reply - exactly what he would have done.  "I know. 
Believe me, I know.  But... I would rather take that risk and die
than continue living like this."  The man-turned-woman walked to a
window, and looked outside.  "Do you know how hard it is to live in
this form?  How demeaning it is to even look in a mirror?  Right now
I should be married, and enjoying life with Akane.  Instead...
instead I'm here, a thousand miles away from her, in a body that
neither of us can love."  She turned to look at him.  Ranma was truly
desperate; Herb could tell by the eyes.  "It ends now, Herb.  I've
tried everything else.  I... I'd rather she mourned a dead body than
a live one."  

Herb's voice remained even - the product of years of court
discipline.  "As you wish, Ranma.  However, this time one of my men
will watch you prepare it, to make sure you do it right this time."

"Okay."  Ranma was action again; she paced around the room.  "I'll be
ready to prepare it tonight.  Will that be fine?"

"Of course."  Herb rose from his seat, and moved to the door.  "Come. 
It is time for us to eat."  He hoped that Ranma would at least enjoy
the meal.  After all, it was likely to be his last.

***

Warmth surrounded Ryouga's body; it felt inviting, almost naughty to
feel so good.  A dull headache rang in his mind, one rapidly fading
in the warmth.  He decided to chance opening his eyes; he cracked his
left eye open, and waited for the light to fade.

He blinked, as he found himself in familiar surroundings.  To be
honest, he didn't expect to wake up in Akane's room, not after what
had happened before. He looked down; he was human.  Funny... he
didn't remember changing back...

"Oh, you're awake."

His head turned sharply.  Kasumi was standing to one side, placing
some clothes in Akane's dresser.  He coughed; he wasn't sure as to
his status here.

"Um... Kasumi?"

Kasumi finished putting the clothes away, and smiled vacuously. 
"Yes?"

He pulled the covers off of himself, and sat up.  "What was Akane's
mood when I was brought in the house?"

Kasumi walked over, and put a hand on his shoulder.  "Ryouga, I think
you need to go talk to Akane as soon as possible.  She was pretty
upset at you, for some reason.  Also, she's been so lonely since
Ranma left."  She sat down next to him.

"You told her last night, didn't you?"

Ryouga blinked.  "How did you know?"

Kasumi fingered his trademark headband.  "I may not know much about
Jusenkyo, but I know a lot about fabrics.  And your little pattern
here is very distinctive."  She sighed, and grabbed his hand.

"Ryouga, I don't know why you and Ranma have been angry.  What I do
know is that you need to put it aside.  Akane needs your help - and
she doesn't need someone who holds a grudge on her fiance hanging
around with her."  

He stuttered, trying to bring objections to his lips.  "But... But
Ranma..."

"But Ranma's hundreds of miles away, trying to search for a cure. 
You should know he doesn't deserve something like that.  And his
fiancee doesn't deserve to be going through what she is."

Ryouga swallowed, remembering the time when he'd been stuck - and how
Ranma tried to help him back.  "No... no, they don't."   He coughed
nervously.  "Where is she?"  

"She's in the living room, watching television."  She gripped his
hand tightly.  "Good luck, Ryouga."  She led Ryouga out of the room,
and left him at the edge of the living area.  He could hear Akane's
breathing at the other side, along with the droning of some
television show.

Perhaps at no other point in his life did he really want to get lost.

Steeling himself, he walked into the room.  He sat down several feet
away from her, to give her some comforting distance.  He tried to
make sense of the television show; it was some sort of drama that he
never had a taste for.

"Um... Akane?"

He looked over at her.  Tear streaks ran down her cheeks; her eyes
were puffy and red from crying.  There was a possibility that it was
from the story... but he seriously doubted it.  "Akane?"

She wiped her eyes with a quick, annoyed flourish, and turned to face
him.  "Ryouga, I... I wanted to apologize."

He blinked.  "You... want to... but I..."

"Don't remind me," Akane said, her voice icy cold.  "What you did was
wrong, and I still don't know how to feel about it."  She traced her
finger along the ground, her shell fading.  "But... what I did was
wrong, too."

Ryouga shook his head.  "How could you do something wrong, Akane?  I
was the one who -"

Akane's hand silenced his words.  "When I found out... what you'd
done, I was so angry... I threw a rock into the water, hoping...
WANTING to hurt you, for what you'd done.  And I... I did something I
vowed I'd never do again."

Ryouga was speechless.  "What?"

"I took advantage of your curse.  I took you in your weakness and
hurt you."  She shook her head, clearly trying to fight off the
tears.  "I... I promised I... would never do... that again.  Not
after Ranma."  She swallowed, and handed him an envelope.  "Here. 
It's the permission you need to get the water."

He swallowed, and took the envelope.  "You... love him, don't you?"

She nodded slowly.  "I do... and now... now he might not be back...
or he could be stuck forever... and I'd... and he'd... Ohgod, Ryouga,
what am I gonna do?"  She degenerated into tears with her words,
turning away so he couldn't see her face.

"A... Akane?"

"Leave me alone, Ryouga!"  The voice calmed.  "Please... I... I
don't..."

Ryouga held his ground for a moment, unsure of what to do.  He knew
better than to touch her; he'd already violated her space too many
times before.  Instead, he hovered over her, trying to offer whatever
comfort he could.

"A... Akane, it'll be all right.  Ranma's gotten through worse stuff
before, right?"  He winced; his voice sounded so... phony.  "Remember
when that Herb guy came for a visit, and he got stuck?  He got
through it then, didn't he?"  Ryouga smiled as he saw her nod.  "You
see?  He'll get through this."  His eyes drifted to the television,
as the hero and heroine faced some family crisis.  "He always does."  

***

Akane sat down at the table carefully, her stomach tied in knots. 
Ever since she'd heard about the attic, a storm of emotions had
hovered over her like a cloud.  She hated Happousai for what she did,
for letting his perversions distort him into something to be reviled
- and feared.  At the same time, the attic held some hope: if Tofu
found the scroll with the poison on it, perhaps a cure could be
found.  

She glanced around, at the others around the table.  Her father sat
on one side, Nabiki and Kasumi flanking him.  None of them were
smiling; that couldn't be a good sign.  The Saotomes were on the
other side, for once holding each other close.  

Finally, on the opposite end, was Dr. Tofu.  He was calm,
surprisingly calm for the situation; then again, he was calm when Mom
died, too.  He coughed once, and looked down at the scroll in his
hands.

"Well, I looked through the scrolls that were left in Happousai's
room.  I... most of the scrolls were of a medicinal nature, so I'm
going to be busy with them for awhile.  However, upon just skimming
through them, I found this."  He unrolled the scroll, and laid it
down on the table.

"This was found in the middle of the pile, so I hadn't thought it
would be important.  However, when I looked through it, I found that
it gave the formula, as well as its effect on someone cursed and
non-cursed."

Akane looked down at her hands.  "Is there a cure?"

Her heart broke when she saw Tofu's eyes.  "Akane... I don't think
so.  There is one mentioned; unfortunately, it must be used within
days after ingesting the punishment for it to be effective."  Tofu
looked over at the others.  "Do you mind if Akane and I speak alone?"

The others nodded their assent.  Akane didn't fight as she was led
out into the backyard.  She startled when Tofu wrapped his arms
around her.

"Akane, I... I'm sorry.  I don't think there's going to be a way out
this time.  I... if I had found that scroll earlier, we might have
been able to cure him."

Akane's eyes blinked furiously.  She didn't want to believe, didn't
want to even think about... about... "D... Doctor, what does this
mean?  For Ranma and I, I mean?"

He shook his head.  "That is up to you.  Ranma... as far as I can
tell, Ranma will be a woman for the rest of her life, regardless of
anything that any of us do."  He tried to smile.  "I will look at the
other scrolls, though, to see if they might tell me anything
different."  

Her eyes darted around the grass, looking for something.  Anything. 
"What about... I mean, I've heard of operations where they..."

Tofu sighed.  "Those will work - but only superficially.  What you
would have is a barely five-foot, redheaded, slim-looking man, who
could not have children."

Akane shivered.  "Then... then there's nothing we can do."

She felt hard hands over her shoulders.  "Akane, I... I will continue
to try to find a solution.  Don't give up yet.  But also... be
prepared, in case Ranma or I don't succeed."

They were quiet for a moment, as words remained poised on their
tongues.

"What are you going to do?  If he can't change back, I mean."

Akane bit her lip.  She didn't want to hear that question.  "Tofu,
I... I don't know.  I love the man inside, but..."

"...but you're not physically attracted to his cursed form, are you?"

She hated the answer.  She knew it was wrong, that she shouldn't be
so concerned with sexuality and personal appearance and public
opinion... but she was.  God help her, she was.  Unable to say the
words, unable to vocally curse her fiance, she shook her head.  

Tofu stepped back for a moment.  He nodded sadly, almost as though he
understood.  "Well then.  You have to make a decision, Akane.  You
have to decide which you care about more."  He slowly walked away
from her.  "I'll be talking with the others about what I have left to
do, Akane.  I'll see you later."

Unconsciously, she straightened up, trying to look more like the
woman she wanted to be.  "Thank you, Doctor."  She watched him walk
inside, wishing she was woman enough to go in there with him... but
knowing that she had a long way to go before she could claim such a
distinction.

***

The little restaurant was nestled in one of Kobe's suburbs, a quiet
town where people worked their darnedest to keep a feeling of
community, even while the city tried to force its impersonalization
on them.  The houses just being built weren't quite ostentatious yet,
the parks were nothing compared to the wilderness nearby, and the
community group was still a strong influence to be felt.  It tried to
make itself feel like a home, even while outsiders coming in wished
to be left alone.

It was here, for all the reasons above, that Kuonji Ukyou decided to
make her new home.

The okonomiyaki chef hummed a tune as she whipped up the orders, her
spatula zinging across the metal surface.  All was right with the
world; all she had was a close friend to help her, a grill to make
her living, and no more obligations - to anyone.  She'd given up on
everyone else; either they wanted something from her, or just felt
like taking from her when they wanted.  

Well, she'd had enough of that.  Here in the 'burbs she could just
escape, be one of a faceless crowd even while rejoicing to the
crowd's music.  She could be friends with someone for an hour and
have no regrets.  

The door chime rang its soulless tune; both she and Konatsu turned to
greet them.  Konatsu finished his greeting, but hers died in her
throat, soon to be replaced by more colorful greetings.

"What are *you* doing here?" Ukyou spat.  "I thought I told you...
you..."  Her words died as she got a look at the guest.

Ranma, for perhaps the only time in her life, *looked* sick.  The
belt was tied tightly around her waist; muscles once well-toned on
Ranma's cursed form were weakened... normal.   Her face was a pasty
white; dark circles were drawn beneath her eyes.  She moved with the
care of a person uncertain on her feet. 

"What happened to you?" Ukyou whispered.

Ranma moved to the table, and set her backpack down.  "I... wasn't
feeling well for awhile.  I'm better now, but I'm still trying to get
over its effects."  She smiled.  "You look well."

"No thanks to you."  Ukyou moved to another section of the grill. 
"What do you want?"

The redhead pulled her backpack closer to her, and pulled out some
money.  "One shrimp 'yaki, traditional style, with some green tea to
drink."  

Ukyou stared at the money for a moment.  Ranma had never offered to
pay for her food before.  Of course, Ukyou had never asked her to.  
"All right," she said evenly.  "One shrimp 'yaki, coming up."  Her
hands became a blur on the grill as she fixed Ranma's meal.  In a
moment, the food was ready, and she served it to her onetime fiance. 
She took the money, handed Ranma the change, then fixed an even glare
on her.

"Okay.  So why are you *really* here?"

Ranma sighed.  She reached into her backpack, and pulled out an
envelope.  "I know it may not be much, but I am trying to atone for
what Pop and I did."  

Ukyou blinked, and fought back her anger.  "What's in this, huh? 
Money?  Some deed to something your dad cheated out of someone else?" 
She threw the envelope on the counter.  "Ranchan, there's nothing you
can do.  I lost my family and ten years of my life because of you,
and there isn't enough money in the world to atone for that."  She
turned back to the grill.  "The only thing you could give me is your
life, Ranchan, and someone's already taken that."

She didn't expect Ranma's reaction.  The woman was almost in tears at
Ukyou's words.  "You're right, Ucchan... I don't have a life to give
you anymore.  Goodbye, Ucchan... and good luck."  The redhead picked
up her backpack and left, leaving the envelope behind.

Ukyou stared out in space for a moment, at the envelope that Ranma
had left behind.  It took her a few minutes to open it.  She was
startled at the amount of money that fell out of it; it was enough to
pay for several yatai, and would give her business the capital boost
she'd been waiting for.  After reading the letter, though, she didn't
feel like celebrating.  

She was right; Ranma didn't have a life to give to her anymore.  But
for once, she desperately wished she were wrong.

***  

Ryouga rubbed a finger along the edge of the envelope, feeling its
comforting presence in his hands.  He twirled it around, trying to do
something to keep him from thinking.  If he actually stopped to
consider what he was doing, he wouldn't do it - and, more than
anything, this was something he had to do.  

He walked up to the door, his eyes never leaving his target.  He
could see the bright duck with her name written in English letters;
he knew enough of the language from his travels to know who resided
in there.  Gathering what courage he had, he reached a hand up to the
door, and knocked.  

"Come in."

He slid the door open carefully, clearing the entrance to holy
ground.  Akane sat at her desk, weighing him with neutral eyes.

"What's the problem, Ryouga?"

The lost boy looked at the letter in his hands once more.  "This. 
Akane, I... I can't accept it."

Akane blinked.  "Why not?  It's your ticket to get the cure.  Don't
you want it?"  

He nodded.  The cure meant so much to him... but he knew he wasn't
ready.  Not yet.  "Akane, I've been doing a lot of thinking ever
since you left this for me.  I... I thought a lot about all the stuff
I did, and all of the things I was angry about."

He sighed.  "Sometimes I think that our curses were given to us so
that we could become who we are supposed to be.  Ranma thought he was
so manly, so some Nyannichuan came by to show him where he needed to
improve.  I thought I was so honorable, so mature... when all the
time I was just a pig."  He handed the letter back to a surprised
Akane.

"When I can prove myself as something other than my cursed form, then
I'll ask you for it."  He lowered his head and turned for the door.

"Ryouga."

He turned back around.  "Yes, Akane?"

"Do you know how often I abused Ranma because of his curse?"

Ryouga shook his head.  "I was there a couple of times.  Beyond
that..."

The young woman bit her lip.  "I always called him a pervert.  I
always thought that he got some sort of kick out of being a girl.  It
took me a long time to realize how much he hated it, how... disgusted
he was by the fact that he had this other body to deal with.  And
now... with what happened... I don't know if I can forgive myself."

The lost boy shuffled his feet for a moment.  "I don't think Ranma
ever told you this but, for a time, I was stuck as a pig during the
Kaisuifuu search.  That moment - that agonizing moment when I
realized I was stuck, possibly forever - was worse than anything I'd
ever been through.  That was why... why I helped Ranma on the
mountain, once I'd been freed by the Kaisuifuu.  Nobody should have
to go through that - and their fiancees shouldn't, either."  

He took a deep breath, and looked her in the eye.  "How are you
holding up?"

She shook her head.  "I... God, I wish he was here.  It's been six
months, Ryouga.  I'm so afraid he did something stupid... right now
I'd accept him as a girl, if it meant having him back..."

Ryouga screwed his eyes shut.  "Akane, I... passed by Ucchan's. 
Apparently Ranma visited there about a month ago, and talked with her
for a bit.  Ranma was still stuck as a girl, but... but there was
something else wrong with her.  According to Ukyou... it was as
though she'd starved herself for months."

Akane turned pale.  "Oh my God... are you sure?"

Ryouga shook his head.  "No.  None of us will be sure until we see
Ranma in the flesh.  I just think... you should be ready for the
worst."

Akane nodded to him.  "Th-thanks, Ryouga."  She looked around the
room.  "Could you turn off the light on your way out?  I'd like some
time by myself."

Ryouga nodded, trying to keep his sadness at bay.  He knew she was
going to cry; he felt like crying along with her at the look on her
face.  "I... I will.  Good night, Akane."  He switched off the light
and shut the door behind him.  His first tears came as he heard her
first sob; by the time he moved out of earshot, his own were in full
torrent.

***

It was raining again.

How goddamn appropriate.

Ranma buttoned the top button of her jacket, and continued on.  It
was night; the rain shone like diamonds against Tokyo's lights.  It
would have been a breathtaking sight - if she didn't feel so
miserable.  Her nose was stuffed up, she was running a fever, she had
to go to the bathroom... 

She was looking forward to home.

It had been too long of a journey.  At first, she didn't want to go
home.  She had barely survived the last cure attempt; it had taken
her awhile to get her strength back.  Besides... she needed to get
used to the idea of being in this body, and a place without the
stereotypes of gender seemed perfect.  She wandered throughout Japan
and China, much like Ryouga... lost in a lost world.  It was nice for
awhile but, in the end, she knew she had to come back.  No matter how
much it hurt, she owed it to them... to her.  Besides, the road
proved to be an unforgiving home; it was no wonder that Ryouga was so
depressed and angry.  

She paused, and realized what she was passing.  She'd missed months
of classes at Furinkan; with college entrance exams coming up in a
few months, she'd probably have to work doubly hard just to get in. 
It wouldn't be easy... then again, nothing in this life was for her. 
Not anymore.  She thought about leaping over the gates, to explore
the halls alone before returning, but a passing car splashed her,
driving the cold rain deep within her.  

Unconsciously, she shivered.  It wouldn't be long.  She walked away
from the gates, and carried on her way.  She thought about walking on
the fence like she usually did, without a care in the world... but
those days were gone, and would never return.  She imagined she would
have to get used to using the women's facilities - assuming they'd
let her.  It wasn't like she could go into the guys' locker room
anymore...

After too long a walk, she found herself there.  The house gleamed
with light; she just stared at it from outside for a moment before
entering, drinking in the sight.  She could hear, very faintly, the
sounds of conversation from inside; she was probably missing dinner. 
They sounded... happy.  

They didn't need her breaking up their happiness.  She'd just go away
for the night, find a nice, dry place to feed herself, and come back
in the -

"Ranma?"

She stopped, frozen.  Akane stood at the doorway, a garbage bag in
her hands.  She was still a vision to Ranma's eyes; her face glowed
red from the cold, most of her body was bundled up to protect her,
but it was still Akane... still her fiancee.  Ranma watched her brown
eyes, looking for love... acceptance... anything.  

Anything to feel like she was home.

She stuttered for a moment; it had been six months, and she'd been
wondering what to say for her in all that time.  "Hey."  Not the best
of greetings, but it would have to do.

Akane walked over to Ranma and touched her shoulder, as though
convincing herself that what she saw was real.  "Ranma... are you..."

Ranma bit her lip.  She was not going to cry - not over this.  "It
didn't work, Akane."  Unable to hold it anymore, she grabbed Akane in
a tight embrace, holding her like a lifeline.  She could feel the
tears mixing with the cold rain. "I'm sorry.  I'm so sorry."

"It's... it's all right."  Akane grabbed hold of her, tight enough to
crush her still-weakened form.  "I... we'll discuss it tomorrow." 
She relaxed the embrace, enough for Ranma to look her in the eye.

"Welcome home, Ranma."

She swallowed.  "It's... good to be back, Akane.  I've missed you."  

Ranma didn't complain as Akane led her by the hand.  She didn't utter
a word as she was pulled into the house... into warmth... into the
place where she belonged.

*****************************************************************

II: Spiral

Ranma rose a little later than her usual that morning; in other
words, just before dawn.  She rolled over, half-expecting to see a
panda on the other side, then felt strange at seeing the empty futon. 
Groaning, she rubbed the sleep from her eyes, and rose to her feet.

Unconsciously, she shook her legs.  It still felt strange to her,
walking around in someone else's body; part of her hoped it always
would.  Letting out a long sigh, she walked over to the closet and
pulled out a shirt and pants, purposely shoving away a school dress
that had been hung up inside.  She wanted to get at least some sort
of workout before school, to get the kinks out of her system.

Her face fell when she walked outside.  The backyard was quiet,
almost too quiet for her comfort.  She wanted to see her old man
waiting for her, a derisive barb urging her on to fight - but she
suspected that wasn't going to happen anymore.  Sighing, she got into
the opening position of some kata, and began to fight the shadows.

Sometimes she wondered why she practiced anymore.  The last attempt
at a cure had nearly cost her life; it had also cost her much of her
strength.  She was still stronger and faster than most, but she
wasn't anywhere near as good as she had been.  

She knew why she practiced, of course.  Practice was her only time to
feel normal.  She couldn't take a bath to relax; any time she got in
the hot water, it just made her feel worse.  School was a nightmare;
yesterday had been her first day back, and she had been forced to sit
out of physical education due to the... classification problems. 
Living in the Tendo home wasn't much better, as each of the other
occupants dealt with her change in different ways.  To some she was a
ghost, to others a girl.  Nobody saw her for who she was.

Her exercises ended all too soon, with a call from Kasumi.  Pop was
living in an apartment with Mom, so any contests for food were done. 
She sat down quietly at the table and began to eat, purposely
ignoring the stares she got from everyone.  They acted like she was
going to fall apart or something over this.

Well, she wasn't.  She was made of stronger stuff than that.  She
picked up her backpack and moved for the door.  A movement caught her
ear from behind; Akane was moving to follow.

She didn't walk on the fences.  She wasn't in the mood.  Instead, she
walked among the other mortals, casually shuffling her way to the
daily grind.  

A hand caught her own, and she stopped.  

"Ranma, what are you feeling?  Tell me, please."

"I'm fine," she lied.

She could hear Akane inhale.  "No, you're not, Ranma.  I know you too
well.  Now please... talk to me, Ranma."

"I said I'm fine, Akane," she said mechanically.  "There's nothing I
can do about this body right now, so I might as well learn to live
with it."  She continued on her way to school, purposely ignoring the
concerned look on Akane's face... or the emptiness she felt inside.

"Well, if you've decided to live with it..." Ranma stopped.  She knew
that tone of voice from Akane.  "...then maybe we should just throw
your old clothes away.  After all, if you've resigned yourself to
being a girl forever, then maybe it's time you started dressing like
one."  

That got Ranma's attention.  "No way, Akane.  No way."

She smiled wickedly.  "What's the matter Ranma?  Afraid to dress up?"

Ranma took a deep breath.  "Akane, I am a guy.  I may happen to have
this body, but I am a guy."  She fixed a cold stare on her fiancee. 
"Do not ask me that again."  

Akane's face fell.  "At least I got some sort of reaction out of you,
Ranma."  She turned away.  "I'll see you at school, okay?"  

Ranma swallowed.  "Okay, Akane."  He watched her walk away for a
moment, drinking in the sight, wishing for what she should have
had... before following her path down the road.  

***

For the first time in too long, Saotome Nodoka was at a loss.

She sat on the couch in her living room, staring at a picture - one
of better times.  Ranma and Akane had only announced their engagement
a few days previous, and the family went out to celebrate.  Everyone
looked so happy then - Ranma held Akane tight, she and Genma looked
so proud, even Nabiki seemed happy for once.  Choking back tears, she
hugged the picture to her chest.

How had it all gone wrong?  Ranma was changed forever into her cursed
form, with no sign of ever returning to normal.  Worse, something had
broken in her; gone was the confident, cocky young man she had been
so proud of.  It was almost as though someone had taken away the best
parts of him, leaving what was left to try to cope.  And, as her
mother, she was obligated to help her through it.

But how?  How could she help someone who has lost their very self? 
How could someone raised to be a man among men be taught to cope with
a woman's body, a woman's life?  

Then, there were matters of honor.  The Tendo engagement still stood
as far as she knew, though she would need to talk with them to make
sure.  There was also the fact that Ranma's new form meant required
changes in behavior.  Akane had been a bit of a tomboy, and had
needed some training in etiquette: now Ranma was in the same boat. 
Honor demanded that she educate Ranma to be a proper young woman,
when eighteen years of life had pushed her in the opposite direction.

It was time for her to unlearn all of that - and she had an idea as
to how.

Biting her lip, she hung the picture back on the wall, and
straightened her kimono.  She had a lot to do, and very little time
to do it.  She walked over to the phone, and dialed the number.  She
knew Ranma wouldn't be in; school wouldn't be out for another few
hours.

"Hello, Tendo residence."

She smiled.  "Hello, Kasumi.  How is everything today?"

The sigh on the other end spoke volumes.  "Not good, Auntie.  Ranma
is so depressed after returning.  And Akane... she spent the last
night breaking bricks to work off her anger."  She looked over her
shoulder.  "Did you want to speak with Father?"

"Oh no!  He's the last person I'd like to speak to on this!"  She
placed the mouthpiece closer.  "Kasumi, could you and Akane meet me
this evening?  I think it's time the three of us had a little talk."

She could hear the thought coming from the other end.  "It's about
Ranma, right?"

Though no one could see her, she nodded grimly.  "Yes.  I think it's
time that the three of us discussed Ranma's future, while he... she
still has one."

Silence hung on the phone for a good ten seconds.  "Auntie, what do
you have planned for Ranma?"

Nodoka frowned.  "I must do as honor demands, Kasumi.  I must make
sure that personal promises are kept, if at all possible... and to
make sure that Ranma is capable of acting as a proper member of the
family."  

More silence.

"Auntie, I'm not sure if that would be a good idea.  After all, Ranma
is just getting used to the fact that he has a different body.  If
you try to push proper manners on him..."

"There isn't a choice, Kasumi.  My son is now my daughter, and I have
to make sure he's ready to go out into the world."  She held her
breath for a moment.  "Kasumi, I think it best if we discussed this
in more detail in person.  Do you know of an appropriate time and
place?"  Nodoka heard the clacking of fingernails against the
receiver; Kasumi was clearly thinking hard about this.

"Auntie, I think the two of us should meet at seven o'clock at the
Shokaido coffee shop, near the restaurant district.  I'll tell Akane
to join us at eight.  That should give us enough time to discuss
this."

Nodoka nodded.  It was exactly as she would have done it - if she had
disagreed with them on something.  "Very well.  Try not to let anyone
else besides us know about it.  This needs to be a girls-only
meeting."

"I understand perfectly, Auntie.  I'll see you at seven, then."

"Okay, Kasumi.  Good-bye."

"Goodbye, Auntie."  The empty space replaced Kasumi's voice, and she
put the phone down.  She had a lot to think about before the meeting
that night.

***

The coffee was good - it smelled heavenly, and had enough kick to it
for Akane to appreciate.  The cheesecake flooded her mouth in creamy
goodness, as she let the tasty morsel melt along her tongue.  She
looked at the pair that had brought her out, causing her to forget
momentarily about the cheesecake.

She knew these two.  They were the closest people she had to a
mother.  And, when they weren't smiling, something was very wrong. 
She took her fork, and drew a picture into the cheesecake's surface.

"So.  Why did you bring me out here?"

Kasumi and Nodoka glanced at each other.  The uneasy look between
them reminded Akane more of the male heads of their respective
households.  "Would you like to speak first, Auntie?  It is your
idea, after all."

Nodoka frowned.  There was clearly something going on between them. 
"I believe I should."  She stirred her tea lightly, then turned to
Akane.

"Akane, it is time we talked to you about your relationship with
Ranma."

She nodded.  She'd been expecting this.  "What is it that's bothering
you about it?"

The two looked at each other again; an eyebrow raised on Kasumi's
face, while Nodoka's acquired a slight blush.  "Well, Akane... we
were wondering what your feelings toward my child are - specifically,
how you feel about him... her right now, and if you still have any
romantic plans."

Akane picked up her coffee cup and tasted a sip, the bitter edge to
it giving her courage.  "Auntie Saotome, if I could clearly answer
that, I would.  It's just that things are difficult right now - and
not just because of the curse."

"What else is bothering you, Akane?"  

"Studying for entrance exams, wondering how I'm going to be able to
afford college, the fact that Ranma has barely talked to me since he
returned..."  

Nodoka reached over the table, and touched Akane's hand.  "Akane,
Ranma is going through a difficult time right now.  She won't accept
who she is, and hates herself all the more as a result.  As such,
I... I think that the three of us need to help Ranma accept who she
has become."

Akane absorbed these words for a moment.  "You mean... you plan to
teach Ranma to be a girl?"

The two sipped their tea in response.  "My child was raised to be a
proper Japanese citizen, a man among men.  The problem is, what Genma
taught him included some things that, while masculine, are no longer
appropriate for who he... she has become."  She put her cup of tea
down.  "It is now time for me to teach Ranma how to be a woman."

Images of Ranma acting feminine came to her mind - along with the
faces of disgust that came later.  "Um... Auntie Saotome, I'm not
sure if that's a good idea."

Nodoka closed her eyes for a moment.  "Akane, believe me when I say
this decision does not come easy for me.  Right now, my child is
dying - and in more ways than one.  About all I can do to save him...
her now is to try to teach h...er to accept who she has become."

Akane sighed.  "Ranma is trying to hold onto whatever manhood is
inside of him, to the point of denying anything even remotely
feminine inside of him.  If you try to force that on him now..."

"I know, Akane.  Kasumi and I have argued at length over this very
subject.  Unfortunately, time and honor do not wait for us.  Ranma is
slowly retreating into herself, and we need to help her accept her
new role in life."  Nodoka took a bite of her cake, then continued. 
"That is one reason why we brought you out here tonight."

"You want me to help out... because I'm his fiancee."  She shook her
head.  "This is crazy."  

"Yes, it is, Akane."  Kasumi's dark eyes stared through her.  "No one
should have to go through what you and Ranma have.  But... we have to
deal with what happened, no matter how much we may dislike it."  

She sighed.  All of a sudden, cheesecake didn't taste so good
anymore.  "What's the other reason?"

Kasumi took a sip of her tea.  "How do you feel about Ranma now?"

Akane twirled the diamond ring on her hand.  "I... I don't know.  It
hurts me to see him like this.  I know he hates his curse so much,
and now this..."

"Are you attracted to his cursed form?" 

Akane blinked; Kasumi was almost never this direct.  It took a full
minute before she could answer.  "I... no.  No, I'm not."

"Do you want to continue the engagement?"  Nodoka sipped the last of
her tea.  

She continued to twirl the ring nervously.  "I... I'd like to try.  I
don't know if I can *love* this Ranma... but I do love Ranma."

Both of them nodded appreciatively.  "We... understand, Akane. 
Believe me, we do."  Kasumi's expression broadened into a secretive
grin.  "After all, there's nothing quite like a man holding you
close, is there?  Those strong arms, that hard chest, those soft blue
eyes staring through you..."

Akane blinked at her older sister.  "K-Kasumi?  I... I never thought
you would..."

Her older sister smiled, though this time it looked more...
mischievous.  "Akane, I had to give up a lot to help raise you and
Nabiki.  That doesn't mean I still don't dream."  

Akane chuckled at the idea, then turned to her half-full mug of
coffee.  "So... we have to get Ranma to become a girl."  She felt
like crying into her mug at the thought; unfortunately, there was no
time for tears.  "What do we do first?"

Nodoka smiled gently.  "Well..."

***

Ranma stared at the fabric in her hands.  It was red, silk, almost
like the shirts she preferred.  Beautiful gold embroidery decorated
the Mandarin-style collar, as did the cuffs and the hem of the dress;
however, the overall cut of the outfit was western, as it flared out
much like one of Kasumi's dresses.  She noted the way it danced in
the light, and imagined that it would probably look quite flattering
on her.  Sighing, she looked up from the outfit, and fit her mother
with an all-too-common stare for her.

"Mom, you have *got* to be kidding."

Her mother looked hurt at the words.  "Dear, this outfit is just
perfect for you!"  She took it from Ranma, and held it out.  "Look at
it!  It's just like those outfits you usually wear."

"With one exception, Mom."  Ranma picked up the hem of the dress. 
"This bottom end wasn't exactly a part of it."  

Ranma sighed again; her mother was giving her *that* stare.  "Ranma,
this is the twelfth outfit that we've picked out for you, and you
don't like any of them!"  Nodoka took a deep breath, and calmed
herself.  "Okay, Ranma.  What outfit would you like to wear?"

She looked around.  Truth to tell, there wasn't much in this store
she did like; most of the clothing was too feminine for her tastes. 
She looked around for a bit, her eyes scanning until she found
something with possibilities.  

"How about this?"  She held up her prize to the others - a pair of
jeans and a bulky shirt.

She could see her mother counting slowly, clearly in an attempt to
control her temper.  "Ranma, I will not have my daughter running
around in anything so... improper."

Ranma closed her own eyes.  She felt like crying; however, she would
not allow her mother that satisfaction.  "Mother, despite current
appearances, I am not your daughter.  I am still your son.  I have
been your son since the day I was born, and I will continue to be
your son until the day I die, even if I have to do it in this body."

The sigh from her mother was not what she expected.  "Well, then.  If
you have to do it in that body, shouldn't you dress appropriately for
your body?"

She thought about retorting about how many guys wore dresses, but
thought better.  After all, there weren't many guys who had
fully-formed breasts, a total lack of facial hair... and a monthly
visitor, which at that moment was reminding her just how 'manly' she
was.  Instead, she opened her eyes, and gave her mother the fiercest
of stares.  

"Mom, this is not an option."

Kasumi chose that moment to step in, and interceded between the two. 
"Auntie, I think perhaps we should go.  Ranma clearly isn't ready for
this yet."  

Nodoka frowned.  "Perhaps... perhaps you're right, Kasumi.  It is a
little premature.  She does need time to adjust to her new life,
after all."  

Ranma turned away, not wanting to hear about their plans.  Surrenders
came one step at a time until there was nothing left; she knew this
from her earlier experiences with Jusenkyo.  First would come the
clothes, all for outward appearances; manners and speech would follow
sometime later.  Before she would realized what she'd lost, she'd be
looking at guys the same way girls looked at her old self.  And that
was the LAST thing she wanted to do.   

She was a guy.

A small teardrop trickled down her cheek; she wiped it away quickly. 
There was no room in her life for tears - not anymore.    

***

"Ranma, I need to talk to you."

Akane caught the redhead by the arm, and whirled her around.  She
fought to keep her emotions under control; however, it was a losing
battle.

"Akane, if it's about the shopping trip-"

"How could you treat your mother like that?  She's only trying to
help you!"  

Ranma simply looked back at her.  She swallowed at the blue eyes that
stared flatly at her - blue eyes that once laughed, or shone with
anger. 

She's worse, Akane thought.

"Akane, I don't expect you to understand or to even pretend to
understand.  Nobody can, not even Ryouga."

"Understand what, Ranma?  How can we understand when you won't even
talk to us?"  She bit back more choice words.  "Ranma, we are trying
to help you."

Ranma turned away.  "The only way you can help me is to leave me
alone."

Something flared in Akane at those words.  "That's not an option,
Ranma."  She held up her left hand for Ranma, to show the diamond
sparkling in the sunlight.  "Remember this, Ranma?  I'm trying to
keep to my promise, believe me.  But it's getting harder and harder
to do that."  She lowered her hands to grab Ranma's.  "Now talk to
me, Ranma."

Ranma sighed.  "Akane... I don't want to lose what's left of me.  And
it'd be so easy, too, now that I'm stuck this way."

She blinked.  "How would you lose what's left of you?"

Soft lips pursed, a clear indication of Ranma's thoughts.  "Back when
I was just cursed... I found that I slowly got used to feminine
things, if I allowed them to be used for one reason or another. 
First it was a skirt, usually for some disguise.  Then... when Happi
came along and made me weak, it was underwear.  Eventually, it got to
the point that I could pose as a girl easily, without really feeling
self-conscious about it."  She shook her head.  "If I go through that
again - if I start to dress and talk like a girl, just for
appearances - I'm afraid I won't be able to go back."  

Akane swallowed.  She could see something in Ranma's eyes now - fear. 
"So?  What's wrong with being a girl?  I happen to be one and like it
just fine, thank you very much!"

Ranma shook her head.  "I can't accept this, Akane.  I just can't. 
If I start to accept this body, then whoever cursed me like this
really has beaten me.  And I won't be beaten, Akane."  Her eyes
flared red.  "I won't."  

Akane moved closer to Ranma.  She could feel her own tears
threatening, as she wanted to scream at the changed man, tell her how
much she already *has* lost...

"Akane, Ranma!  Father and Uncle Saotome would like to talk with
you!"  

She fixed Ranma with as fierce a stare as she could muster.  "We'll
talk about this later, Ranma."  She walked out of the room, making
sure that Ranma's footsteps echoed behind her.  

The main living area was about like it always was.  It was shut up to
keep the warm air inside; she missed the open-air feel of the
summertime.  Her father and Mr. Saotome sat on one end of the main
table, while Nodoka stood nearby.  The look on all of their faces
spoke of the nature of their business.  The two sat down on its
opposite end, and looked over at them.

"Akane, Ranma, your parents have been talking of late concerning the
future of the dojo."  Akane turned to Ranma at Nodoka's words; she
could see the desperate look on the girl's face.  Seeing the look as
well, her father sighed, and took a sip of his tea.

"When I inherited the dojo from my father, I had to perform one final
task first.  He took me out to the building, and showed me each and
every square inch of my inheritance.  He showed me where hasty
patches had been made, where the roof was leaking, what supports were
in need of repair... and then ordered me to fix them.  He said that I
would have to make the dojo my own before I would be allowed to take
in any students."  

Soun set the mug down, and fixed a stern gaze on the two of them. 
"It is now time that I ask the same of you.  You both have come of
age; it is time for you to prepare your future."

Akane looked over at Ranma.  A hundred reasons why not passed between
them without a word.  

"But, Daddy... it's October!  It'll be snowing in a month!"  She
looked over at Ranma.  "Besides, Ranma and I have college exams
coming up."  

The smile grew beneath his mustache.  "Much of the repairs I had to
make were also in wintertime.  As for your other responsibilities...
your parents are quite aware of them.  We will not expect you to work
during the week; however, we will expect you to put some effort into
it during the weekend."  

Genma coughed, indicating his wish to speak.  "Also, we expect the
two of you to work together on the project.  You both will be
inheriting the dojo; you both should be responsible for repairing it. 
Besides, it will give the two of you a chance to mend your fences."  

Akane stared blankly at Genma for a moment, then realized what their
parents were trying to do.  She had to admit; it was one of their
better schemes.  "Okay.  When do we start?" 

Soun smiled.  "Next weekend.  We should be able to get the supplies
for you by then."  

Akane bit her lip, and looked over at Ranma.  The young woman had her
head bowed; for once, her expression was unreadable.  She wanted to
be able to understand that face again, to know who it was inside
there... to have *her* Ranma back.

Maybe this way, she could.

"Okay, Daddy.  We'll be there."

***

"I'm sorry, Ranma.  There is no cure - not anymore."

Ranma clenched her fists, and rested them against her thighs.  She'd
known... she'd known ever since she'd awoken from the last disastrous
attempt... but it still hurt to hear.  It made her feel strangely
tired... old.  "Are you sure?  I mean... there must be some sort of
amulet or formula or *something* to cure me..."

Dr. Tofu shook his head.  "If I knew of one, Ranma, you'd be the
first to hear about it.  As it is, I've read just about everything
the Musk and Nyuchiezu had to offer.  I... I can't find anything
helpful, Ranma.  I'm sorry."

It hurt for Ranma to swallow.  She could feel the wetness in her
eyes, wanting to come out... but she couldn't.  She just couldn't. 
"It's... it's okay, Doc."  She rubbed her toes along the ground. 
"Has there been any word on Happousai or Cologne?"

"None," Tofu sighed.  "And, with no leads to look up..."

"...they won't get found until someone stumbles across them
somewhere."  She ground a thumbnail into the palm of her other hand. 
"Which leaves me like this."  

Tofu nodded, and sat down next to her.  "I... Kasumi tells me that
things haven't been well for you lately."

Ranma snorted.  "Gee, whatever gave you that idea?"

"Ranma..."  Tofu sighed, and put down his clipboard.  "Ranma, how is
your mother treating you right now?"

She closed her eyes in frustration.  The less she thought about her
mother anymore, the better.  "How do you think?  She keeps on harping
about 'family honor', and how I need to act like some stupid girl
because I look like one now..."

"Ranma, your relationship with your mother isn't easy, mainly because
the two of you are stuck together whether you want it or not.  I know
I had some difficulties in dealing with my mom when I was your age." 
The doctor looked over at an eye chart.  "Know what I did to solve
it?"

Ranma was genuinely curious.  "What?"

Tofu smiled mischievously.  "I went to college for eight years."  

Ranma glowered at him for a moment... but only a moment.  "You
mean... you became a doctor because you wanted to get away from your
mom?"

He shrugged.  "Well, she was always trying to marry me off at the
first opportunity - something I'm sure you might find familiar. 
So... I went away to college so that I could live by myself, away
from any pressures she might put on me."

She couldn't help but laugh.  "Did it work?"

"Not totally... but enough."  Tofu smiled at his patient.  "How are
exams coming?"

Ranma looked downward.  "I have a lot to do before I'll be ready for
them."

"Then I recommend you get ready for them, young man."  He held a hand
out to her.  "And come by if you ever feel like talking, or whenever
things get too rough.  Okay?"

The hand was met with enthusiasm.  For once, Ranma had someone on her
side.  "Okay, Doc.  I will.  

***

Sometimes Kasumi hated her role in life.  

Ever since Mother had died, she'd always been the one to try to
install some sanity into the family.  She'd had to put aside
everything she'd dreamed of to raise two little girls... girls who
were only a couple of years younger than her.  She was the one who
cooked instead of studied through school, she was the one who made
sure Father had some classes going on in the dojo... and she was the
one who had to make sure that the best interests of Tendo Akane were
seen to.  

Sighing, Kasumi knocked on the door.  She smiled at the duck
nameplate; at least some things were still around to comfort.  

"Come in."

She opened the door.  Akane sat at her desk, a book cracked open for
study.  Kasumi idly noted the subject material, then gestured to the
bed.

"Do you mind if we talk?"

Akane turned away from the desk.  "Sure, Sis.  What about?"

Kasumi wrung her hands together, searching for the most diplomatic
way to speak her mind.  "Akane... about what Auntie Saotome said
earlier about teaching Ranma... I don't think you should concern
yourself with it all that much."

Akane blinked.  "You don't agree with what she's saying, do you?"

"In a way, I do... and in a way, I don't."  She ran a hand along the
side of her apron.  "I do agree that Ranma should eventually start to
act her gender.  However, I believe that that will simply come in
time, as she adjusts to her condition."  She let out a gentle sigh. 
"Unfortunately, Auntie Saotome doesn't see it that way."

Akane reached around and closed her book.  "Kasumi, what are you
asking me to do?"

Kasumi bit her lip.  "I... think that you should try to work with
Ranma to make her feel more... at home as a girl.  She needs someone
close to her, someone who she can talk with and relate to.  Right
now, she's so guarded that I don't know if she'll ever come out of
it."  She got up from the bed, and moved to stare out the window. 
"Auntie Saotome is going to force this on Ranma whether she likes it
or not.  To her, it's a matter of honor.  What I need you to do is to
make sure it's a matter of honor she can live with."  

She could hear the tapping of an eraser against the desk - a sure
sign of Akane's thoughts.  "Well... okay, Sis.  I'll try.  It's
just... right now I can't get through to her.  She's so closed
off..."  A muffled choke came from the desk.  "Kasumi, I don't know
what to do with her anymore."  

Kasumi walked over, and grabbed Akane's hands.  "Akane, this dojo
idea is probably your best chance.  Talk with her.  Help her.  See to
it that, no matter what happens, she isn't alone."

Akane swallowed.  "Okay, Kasumi.  I... I will."

The young matriarch breathed a sigh of relief.  "Good.  Now... I do
have some ideas for the renovation of the dojo..."

***

The dojo was gone, at least in any way that Akane thought.  The
shrine she'd bowed to every morning was taken down, as were the
various other decorations along the walls.  She knew it would be a
matter of time before the roof and wall paneling were similarly
vanished... like everything else she cherished in life.

Perhaps this was the point of her father's final exercise.  So many
of life's blessings had been taken from her, just as she'd come to
take their gifts for granted.  She never expected to ask Daddy when
Mommy was coming home, only to meet a torrent of tears.  Despite the
odds, she never expected to see Ranma, cursed and slightly pale,
standing at her doorway like a stray puppy come home.  Life gave to
her, and life took away.  

This, on the other hand, was something she could fight to keep, and
do whatever she could to keep running.  Unlike illnesses or
tragedies, this was something she could do something about, s piece
of her to be built and maintained.  She was the captain of her fate,
for the first time that she could remember, and the prospect was a
little frightening.

She walked over to the bare walls, and felt its reassuring hardness. 
As she looked closer, she could see more closely why she was doing
this.  The past few years had not been kind to the old place; she
could see patches and odd-colored boards from various impromptu
demolitions.  Already her mind was calculating the repairs required. 
It would be a long, drawn-out project; fortunately, she had time. 
She'd been preparing for exams already, so she didn't have to play
catch-up like Ranma.  

In other words, she'd just been given her final exam, and she licked
her lips in anticipation.  

"Hello, Akane."

"Ryouga?"  She turned around to the entrance.  "How have you been?"

"Fine."  To Akane's eyes, he was more than fine.  For lack of a
better term, Ryouga looked at peace.  The anger that seemed to twist
his face so often was wiped clean, leaving a sad, enigmatic smile in
its place.  His whole bearing seemed to be relaxed as he casually
walked into the dojo.  

"That's... good to hear, Ryouga."  She shuffled her feet against the
wood, and looked around at the dojo.  "Did you hear about what's
happening with this?"

Ryouga nodded.  "Sounds like a fun job - when the weather's warmer,
that is."  He felt the wooden paneling.  "Considering how often Ranma
and I trashed the place, it certainly needs it."  

The young man looked down at his feet.  "How's she doing, by the
way?"

Akane blinked.  "Ranma?  She's... doing about as well as can be
expected.  She... I don't know.  I've never seen her depressed like
this before."  

"That's why they're called 'curses'," Ryouga said solemnly.  "If they
were something people wanted, then they would count it a blessing." 
He leaned against the far wall.  "And how about you?"

"Me?"  Akane blinked.

"Of course, you.  How are you handling what happened?"  

She sighed, and leaned against the wall.  "I don't know.  I still
love her, of course, but..."

"But?"

"But I don't know what's going to happen to our relationship now." 
She turned around, and sat down.  "I mean... Ranma's changed, in ways
that are more than physical.  She's... scared, I guess.  Scared of
what she's become.  I never thought I'd miss Ranma's arrogance or
tactlessness... but right now I'd rather have her insult me than just
sit there."  

"Oh."  Ryouga looked down sadly.  "Have you tried talking with her?"

Akane nodded.  "She's too far inside of herself right now.  Her whole
life's changed, and she's still trying to figure out what to do with
it."  She knocked a fist against the wall.  "She won't talk to me,
Ryouga, and I don't know what to do."

"Just wait, Akane.  She'll come around in time - I hope."  He looked
around for a moment, the light shining in his eyes.  "Hey, Akane."

"Yeah?"

"Want me to teach you the Bakusai Tenketsu?"  He pointed to the
walls.

Akane looked at him for a long moment, and couldn't help but smile. 
"Okay.  But you're helping me clear the pieces..."

***

The chalkboard danced with the symbols of learning: elegantly curved
Arabic numerals, sharp root signs, blunt variable letters.  The
sensei added to the dancers with each word, his fingers scratching
across the blackboard like some abstract artist on hard black velvet. 
He would occasionally turn around to make one comment or another; for
the most part, though, his voice echoed from the blackboard to the
students behind him.

Ranma sat through the class, trying desperately to stay awake. 
Before, she would have had no compunctions about sleeping in class;
after all, what did a martial artist need with math?  Now, though,
she had a very good reason for studying in class, and for sitting
through this cram school.

To put it simply, she wanted out.

It wasn't easy for her to admit that.  She had come to regard the
Tendo house as her home; to say goodbye to it would mean letting go
of the last of her old life.  But... just living at that house
anymore hurt too much.  She was a stranger in everyone's eyes; as
such, everyone was a stranger to her.  If it weren't for Akane...
she'd have left long ago.

She twirled her pencil on the desk, and frowned.  She was so tired;
she still hadn't fully recovered from her trip to find a cure, and a
part of her feared she never would.  Sure, she was still the best;
unfortunately, her best was nowhere near what he had been at his
peak.  To make matters worse, most of her time was drained in either
school or the dojo; she missed the idea of free time.  Unconsciously,
she flexed her hands, wishing for vanished strength.  

A commotion at the front got her attention.  She watched the
professor place the chalk on the tray, the first time in two hours
that he'd stopped to rest.  Ranma smiled; she'd made it through
another session.  She noted any scribbles from the professor that she
might have missed, jotted them down, and stuffed the notebook in her
bag.  Now was the time for her to be alone... the only time she could
feel alive again.  She stood up, and got out of the building as fast
as she could.  

She grimaced; the icy wind cut at her face, taunting her in her
infirmity.  Her hand closed the final clasp of her coat, and in an
instant she was no longer part of the crowd... but above it.  With a
couple of well-placed bounds, she was on the rooftops, moving through
the night air at high speed.  

Of course, like everything else, it didn't feel the same; here,
though, she was glad for it.  The wind howled around her ears, its
uncaring chill seeping the life from her small body.  Muscles only
recently reconditioned screamed at her efforts, desperately urging
her to fall back among the mortals.  

She would have none of it.  Her old self would have laughed at these
conditions; she tried to do so, though all that came out was a
shivering chatter.  She leapt from one rooftop to another, never
stopping, never yielding.  She'd yielded before, and it had cost her
manhood.  She would never, EVER yield again - not to her parents, not
to the Tendos, not to anybody... never again.  

To put it simply, she couldn't afford to anymore.

She let out an animal groan as she came across a particularly
difficult passage; it was a fair distance from one roof to another,
and she needed a boost of strength to make the jump.  She stepped in
just the right place, thrust her legs out just right...

No.

She knew the instant her legs pushed off that she was in trouble. 
Drained by the cold and her condition, she'd leapt poorly, without
the power needed to make the jump properly.  There was no rotation to
her body during the jump; she was going to meet the roof in a rather
unpleasant manner.

Ranma slammed hard against the building, hitting in that edge where
roof and wall meet.  She howled as her torso was bruised by the hit;
there were times when she truly hated her endowments.  Fighting back
the pain, she reached out to the roof, and managed a handhold.  Once
she was in control, it was a piece of cake; she pushed off of the
wall, and bounced her way down to the surface.  She rolled onto the
ground, only making whatever movements were necessary to keep from
getting injured.  

After a moment to check herself, Ranma stood and looked up at the
roof.  She'd made that jump hundreds of times, back when her body was
her own, back before she'd had to risk her life for a cure.  Now,
though, she was worse than cursed.  She was mortal.

She hated that.

Ranma brushed some dust off of her outfit, and began to walk home. 
Occasionally she would look up at the sky, and wonder exactly when
her wings to fly had been cut.

***

*wham*  "Baka." *wham* "Baka!" "*WHAM* "BAKA!"

"Enough, Akane!"  Ryouga grabbed the hammer out of her hands. 
"Enough."  He looked hard at her.  "Now what's wrong?"

The dark-haired beauty let out an exasperated sigh.  "Oh... it's
Ranma again."

Ryouga lay his own hammer on the ground.  This was a story he'd heard
before - too many times before.  "What did she do this time?"

Akane started to gesture with her hands, as though her movements
would translate into concepts.  "We... took her shopping again
yesterday."

"And how did that go?"

Akane sat down next to the half-finished wall.  "How do you think? 
She tried on everything that her mother gave her, said she didn't
want any of them, then walked over to the men's section to look.  She
was rude, inconsiderate... it frightens me anymore, Ryouga.  I know
her mother's pushing her a little hard, but..."

The lost boy sighed, and adjusted the fit of his bandanna. This was a
story he'd heard before.  For a moment, he wondered if Ranma was
doing it on purpose, just to get everyone she loved away from her. 
After all, he would have done the same - and did to an extent, after
being given the Heitonnichuan curse.  "A... Akane, Ranma's just going
through a difficult time right now.  I mean... she's having to come
to terms with so many things at once that it's overwhelming her."  He
rubbed his chin thoughtfully.  "Akane, have you considered the
possibility of backing off of the fashion lessons for awhile?"

Akane blinked.  Apparently she was lost in her own little world. 
"Huh?"

Ryouga sighed.  "Akane, right now Ranma thinks of herself as a man. 
She's been raised not just to be a man, but a 'man among men', an
example of masculinity for others around her.  Now... all of a
sudden, those same people who were encouraging her to be manly want
her to go in the opposite direction." 

He sat down next to her, and tried to give his best smile.  "Akane,
how would you feel if you suddenly found yourself to be a guy, and
had everyone around you forcing you to act as manly as you could?"

She sighed.  "I... I wouldn't know how to take it.  I mean..."  She
broke off, then stared at him.  "That's the point you're trying to
make, isn't it?  Ranma can't take what we're doing to her."

Ryouga nodded.  "Unfortunately, by the sound of things, it seems like
her mother isn't bending on this."

Akane just shook her head.  "Auntie Saotome may be a wonderful lady,
but she's about as bad as her husband at raising Ranma sometimes."  

"Hmmm.  That is a problem."  Ryouga took off his bandanna, and wiped
his forehead.  "Have you considered trying to get him...er, her... to
do feminine things she might like?"

Akane just looked at him.

"Um... good point."  The lost boy sighed, and threw a nail across the
room and into a bucket.  

"Akane, somehow, you need to get Ranma accustomed to the fact that
she is female.  I don't know how; knowing her, there may be no way
to.  But... I think the more you include her in whatever you're
doing, the better off she'll be."

He looked in Akane's eyes.  The gears were turning inside; he could
see them through her glassy stare.  She was getting ideas - the
better for both her and Ranma.  "Okay, Ryouga.  I... I don't know if
it'll work, but I'll try.  She probably won't be willing to do
anything until after entrance exams at the very least."

Something clicked inside Ryouga at Akane's words.  "Um... shouldn't
you be studying right now?"

Akane nodded.  "Probably.  I've been preparing for nearly a year now,
though, so I can afford a little time to build.  Ranma, on the other
hand, needs all the time she can get."  She got up, and winked at
him.  "Fortunately, what I have planned for her shouldn't take too
long."

***

Akane wiped her sweaty palms along her skirt, and looked at herself
in the mirror.  Her eyes focused on every detail, from that small
scar near her right cheekbone to the way her bangs fell down her
forehead.  She looked at the eyes that stared back at her, and asked
herself the question no one else could.

"Are you sure you want to do this?"

Swallowing, she focused her emotions on what she was about to do. 
She reminded herself constantly that it was a guy she was going to
meet, the man that she had fallen in love with, and had pledged her
life to.  

She just had to remember that when Ranma's flesh was pressed against
hers.  

Grimacing, she walked out of her room and down the hallway.  She
could hear Ranma in her room, a borrowed stereo turned on to help her
study.  Akane bit her lip; she knew how hard Ranma had been working
lately, and wondered if perhaps this wasn't too much of an intrusion. 
Ranma had a lot of catching up to do, and she wanted to make sure,
even though her past wasn't anything to write home about, that
Ranma's future would be the best one possible.  She knocked
tentatively, then slid the door open.  

"Ranma?"

"Hmmm?"  Ranma looked up from the book she was reading.  Akane
swallowed; those eyes were still so pure, so beautiful... even if the
body they were attached to was different.  She never took her eyes
off of Ranma's as she walked toward her.  

"Ranma... I'd like to talk.  About our relationship."  

Ranma, for her part, looked surprised - and nervous.  "Um... what
about, Akane?"

Akane knelt down next to her, and cupped Ranma's chin in her hands. 
"About... certain things.  It's been lonely in the past year, you
know..."

Ranma nearly jumped out of her skin.  "Akane?  Are you feeling all
right?"

"Never better," Akane sighed huskily.  She could see it; Ranma was
getting excited.  "And... I wanted to share the moment with you."

"With... me?" Ranma squeaked.  Akane could see that Ranma was getting
aroused; her nipples were starting to poke out.  

"Yes, you.  You are my fiance, right?"  She advanced on Ranma like a
panther stalking prey; Ranma looked like a delectable piece of meat
to be sampled.  

"Well, yeah, but..."

Akane put a finger to Ranma's lips.  "No buts, Ranma.  I want you.  I
want you now.  I want to show you just what it's like to be made love
to."  She let her finger trace down to Ranma's neck, while her mouth
kept Ranma silent.  

Strange the differences between bodies, Akane thought.  She knew that
Ranma changed on a basic level with the curse; she never imagined how
much, though.  The redhead's teeth felt different as her tongue
played with Ranma's; the skin beneath her fingertips was soft, almost
like a baby's.  She could feel Ranma's mammaries gently pressing
against her own; it made her somewhat envious, as she'd always been
self-conscious about her chest size.  She lowered her hands slightly,
and began to slip the buttons away.  

"Um... Akane..." Ranma managed in between kisses.  

"No words, Ranma.  No words."  Akane moved another button away, and
slid her fingers inside Ranma's shirt.  She gently teased at the
edges of Ranma's left breast, running her fingernail along the areola
line.  She could feel Ranma shuddering beneath her; her ministrations
were having the desired effect.  Sure, it wouldn't be as enjoyable as
if they were man and woman, but... she couldn't be picky.  

It was time for her to up the ante, she decided.  Giving one last
lazy circle around Ranma's breast, she moved to her own shirt, and
began to take it off.  

"Um... Akane, I don't think we should do this now," Ranma breathed. 
Akane watched Ranma's eyes widen as they followed her hands, down...
down... She struggled with the last button, and tossed her shirt open
with a flourish.

"What's the matter, Ranma?  Don't like what you see?"

"Um... Yes!  I mean... Dammit, Akane..."  Ranma moved to her chest,
and began to button her shirt.  "Akane, I'm not ready for this."

The dark-haired woman sighed.  The mood was lost.  "Then when will
you be ready, Ranma?"

Ranma shook her head.  "I don't know.  Things are so strange now...
and I'm still not sure how to deal with it."

Akane backed up, and began to button her blouse.  She fumbled with a
couple of them; her hands were shaking.  "Ranma, I know this is
difficult on you.  But it's been four months.  You need to get over
it, and get on with your life."

The redhead didn't say a word; her head shook in response.  Akane
stood up, and finished adjusting her outfit.

"Ranma... I... I love you.  We all do.  Please remember that - before
you find all of us gone."

Ranma looked up at her with eyes like a trapped deer.  Words hovered
on her lips; all that came out were twitches and quivering.  Not
wanting to look, not wanting to do anything, Akane walked out of the
room.  She needed something to break.

***

The dress fit around Ranma's frame lightly, its soft fabric tickling
the skin of her calves.  She played with the collar; it felt a little
tight on her, though, considering the size of most of her current
clothing, that was to be expected.  A frown came to her face as she
examined the cuffs; they weren't meant to be rolled up, like she
often did with her shirts.  Forcing down her revulsion, not listening
to the part of her that said how good the dress felt around her,
Ranma turned around to face the mirror.  

Much as she hated to admit it, she looked pretty.  The forest-green
cotton matched the red of her hair, and flattered her lithe frame
perfectly.  It wasn't particularly overly-feminine liked Kasumi
preferred, nor was it some sexy man-catching outfit.  It was simply a
dress.
 
And that was the problem.  It was a dress, a symbol of womanhood the
world over.  As good as it felt on her, as good as it looked on her,
it didn't belong on her.  And, if she had anything to say about it,
she'd never wear any sort of dress again.

Mustering up what resolve she had, she walked out of the dressing
room, to where Kasumi, Akane, and Nodoka were waiting.  She knew
their reaction to the outfit; they'd give some exposition on how
pretty it was on her, or how it matched her eyes, or how it flattered
her figure... and how she just *had* to get it.  She almost felt like
bringing a baton anymore, and conducting their statements as though
the trio were some orchestra.  

"Ohhh... it looks beautiful on you, Ranma!"  Kasumi started this
particular round of compliments, and swiftly turned to Nodoka.  "This
would be perfect for the Christmas party!"

Nodoka nodded her agreement, then walked over to the redhead.  "Oh,
Ranma.  You look so much like I did at your age.  You look just
beautiful."  

Akane approached her from the side, and appraised her carefully. 
"Gotta admit, Ranma: I'm envious."  She walked closer, kissed Ranma
on the cheek, and whispered into her ear.  "Please..."

Ranma stiffened.  "Mom... I can't wear this."

The sighs of exasperation came in response, just like they always
did.  "Ranma, we have been through this before.  The Christmas party
is in two weeks, and I am *not* going to h