Haruka's Dark Night of the Soul

Ghostwritten by John Biles

By Any Means Necessary,
A man once said.
The words still echo 
Inside my head.

I will do whatever it takes
I will cross whatever boundaries
I will break whatever rules
To accomplish my mission.

I would sacrifice my possessions,
I would sacrifice my health,
I would sacrifice my life,
Sacrifice my soul.

I do not do this for you.
I do not do this for myself.
I do this for the good of the world.
I do this that the world might live.

I must do what only I can do.
It is what I was made for.
It is for this that I live.
And yet, I know doubt still.

Am I evil?
You cannot answer that.
You love me.
We have risked our souls together.

The others do not understand.
They think they can win 
By staying on the straight and narrow
That they can save the world AND their souls.

But we know better, don't we?
Nothing comes without loss.
Nothing comes without sacrifice.
Or do we really know that?

I look at Usagi and see everything I've lost.
She has a love which no one will condemn.
She has a family who loves her still.
She has a soul that remains unstained.

She should hate us for what we've done.
We've put her down, told her she was a child.
We've gone our own way, left her behind.
And yet, she loves us still.

In the end, the task fell to her.
She ignored our wisdom...and won.
She brought healing where we saw only death.
Was everything we did for nothing?

How can she be the Princess?
How can she have power without cost?
What has she given up?
Why didn't she have to pay?

You may think I'm bitter.
Hell yes, I'm bitter.
I want to hate her, but I cannot,
Which hurts worst of all.

I'm deathly afraid I sold my soul too cheap.
I'm deathly afraid I didn't HAVE to do the things I've done.
Maybe I'm just a fool who didn't understand.
Tell me, Michiru...did we do the right thing?

Sometimes I dream that when we die, 
The demons will come for our souls.
I pray that Usagi-chan will be there 
To fight them...by any means necessary.